The J's..

still alive!

2009-11-12T11:42:00.002+08:00

And so after 8 months since the last blog entry, I'm still well alive here and I'm very much aware that I've left this blog unattended. Haha..I know but for the past months, my life has been pretty happening, not in a good way though,unfortunately, but it's all good now. So, to keep my story short,sweet and simple.

It was a longggggggggggg painful,excruciating wait, it kept my days as miserable as it possibly could be. I didn't know what to do, where to go, whom to turn. I had my parents and family bothered with the situation and all I could do was stand alongside and look at them. I cried day and night because I fail to come to a solution, I had NO IDEA, not even the slightest. All that was in my mind was "I'M A BURDEN" why? BECAUSE, then,

1) I WAS REJECTED BY THE LOCAL UNI FOR THE TWINNING PROGRAM IN CHEMICAL ENGINEERING. (1 yr locally + 3 yrs in aus) sponsored by government.
2) I WAS REJECTED BY MOE FOR MY SCHOLARSHIP APPLICATION as well.

However, I was accpeted by UNSW, sydney, which meant I had to go self funded! I wasn't happy at all, I was cursing/swearing/complaining! I hated so much how things always have to happen the way they happened to me, nothing was ever smooth, EVER! On top of that, I have my brother who is a SHELL SCHOLAR, I was living in HELL, IN FUCKING HELL. As a daughter, my duty is to study hard, graduate and I want to do it WITHOUT having to touch a single cent of my parents money IF POSSIBLE! I wanted to follow my brother's footstep. I pray all day long, I repeated my prayers all the time to HIM, asking him for a chance to turn things around, to lead me to an opening where I can escape from all these, to guide me to a path where I should be walking down.

Later on, when the local uni has embarked, I appealed personally to them asking for re-consideration and THEY DID! I was a month late when I entered and I'm going to say it was HELL! Because there was SO MUCH, JUST SO MUCH to catch up and I had to study on my own because I've missed the previous lectures and imagine, lesson goes on everyday. I wanted soooo badly to tell my parents, I don't think I can do it but as the thoughts of having them send me to aus themselves, I forced and pushed myself to continue. I was hella reluctant. So reluctant but I know if I stay, I'll save them alot. I had no choice, no choice. Although dad says it's fine that I go self-funded but that's not what I want. NO! I pretend to be happy, because only by doing that, nobody knows. I tell them it's okay, I'm doing well but I cried every single night because I felt so stressful and I couldn't share it with anyone else.

As soon as I thought that's how my life is going to be, or will be and was slowly accepting the fact of everything, I received a call from MOE regarding my scholarship one tuesday afternoon. I didn't know how to react, what to say or even how to feel coz I was NUMB! I attended the scholarship briefing the next day and I was awarded by MOE to do CHEMICAL ENGINEERING. Only about 3 weeks of study in the local uni, I quit since I've been awarded the scholarship.

So here I'm now, back to my 3 months or lesser holiday till I become a uni student again in FEB 2010. Once from nothing, to everything. I don't know why things happen the way it did but I'm sure HE had his reasons, it was probably a test of patience, preserverance and belief and by looking at where I'm today, I have passed!

I'm extremely thankful and grateful. 4 years to go till I graduate with a degree. Let's hope all will be well, till then, this is the biggest achievement in my life. As a daughter to my parents, as a member to the entire family, my duty is half done. The remaining half would be known 4 years later:).

Often times, people fail to achieve because they fail to preserver till the very last moment. My story may not be inspiring/motivating or whatever shit, but it is a fact, I'm a proof! Always believe you'll get what you WANT to get. Once you have given everything you think you could possibly offer, you have put the best effort into doing something, leave the rest to HIM, I'm sure He sees it and will choose the best for you. Have faith and believe in Him.

I sound very christian, don't I? Haha..I probably do, but it was all the endless prayers i've said to Him that helped me come this far, each time I pray, I find peace, comfort and courage.

And on top of everything, the one thing that still make me shed some tears, but happy ones this time would be when I thought about how much I've helped not only myself but my family. That is the best I can offer them now.

2009-03-16T14:47:00.006+08:00

I'm still alive! For the past few days, I was engaged in this JUBLI PERAK BADMINTON COMPETITION. It's an event organized for charity purposes. We had sponsors for each team and the money goes to charity. Finals wasn't easy I must say..I played singles against LISA from BSRC TEAM A!

The 3 pics above were taken by wen juan. Thanks to her tho it was pretty far as I was on the next side of the court. Talking about this, I would like to sincerely thank all those who came to show their support. I had quite a number of UNEXPECTED supporters. So surprised to see them yet I was really happy! Not entirely on because I won but because I had that bunch of people sitting there to cheer for me. THUMBSSS UPP!! Lovee lovee..

I'm taking maybe a day or two off from badminton. Had my shoes,knee support all down the washing machine. Its not like I haven't washed them for a long time, I do everynow and then. Hahha..I'm just saying. Hehe...

Overall,it was a good experience to be part of the team. I'm looking forward to more competitions.

2009-03-11T22:51:00.002+08:00

HEEEEELLLLLLLL OOOOOOOO!! I'm back! Is the world turning upside down,the clock ticking the other way round,OR WHAT?! Hahahhahaa....after missing for soooooooooooooooo long, I'm pretty surprised MYSELF that I still remember this blog exists! I know okay,I'M AWARE that I haven't touched or done anything like this for ages! I'm doing it NOW! You might think what had been keeping me away?

Let's start now, this holiday that I'm currently having is hella happening. U have no idea! ALTHOUGH Ive been at home alot but each day is just filled with excitement. I'm currently taking my driving lessons,completed the initial 10 hrs,booked for my driving test and I have another additional 5 hrs to go just to be u know STABLE AND CONFIDENT which I'm still lacking on road at the moment.

Next comes my SERIES MARATHONING schedule! I'm watching GREY'S ANATOMY and god,I'm so in love with derek and meredith! Ohh..the plastic surgeon mark sloan is SLURRPP...HOT! While everybody is in season 5, I was just completing season 1 and 2 but u see I have all the time in the world at the moment so I've pretty much catched up. I proudly announce that I'm not in season 5! Just started the first epi:)! Talking about grey's anatomy, I'd like to sincerely thank sim who drove all the way to alex hse just to save me the remaining season 4 episods and the new episods of season 5 just so he could transfer it to me yest night,not having me to pause as I only had season 4 part 1. I was too eager to know what's gonna happen in part 2 so I couldn't bear to have the gap in between but god sent me an angel to get everything cleared;)!

THANK U SIM!

Another happening thing so far,recently I would say was SHELL's SCHOLARSHIP ASSESMENT CENTRE! Hell man,who went would know how it was like. Nothing funny,nothing easy,nothing enjoyable! It was a day or two of TOTAL HELL! It was tough,NO JOKE! At least to me it was because I was just clueless even up till today about how I did. I do not know if what I thought was logical to say will be the same to them. They're SMART ppl man...hard to deal with okay. Hard to impress but I would say I've tried my best,not in trying to impress them but doing my part. At this point, I'm just gonna pray and wait.

Well,after sitting at home for so long,being jobless. I took up a new hobby! That is reading crystal ball! Hahhahaha..lolsss!! I know waht's gonna happen for the coming four days! I'm gonna have a badminton tournament in mumong. 7.30pm! Specific enough? Hahahaha...Afi just called me say 30-45mins ago telling me about it and I didn't give it any deep thoughts because I'm free. As far as I'm concerned I'M VERY FREE! So why not? Talking about this, I'm thinking of giving tuition. I want to do something that can help me get thru each day with much more excitement at the same time earn some CASSHH but the time has to be flexible. Tuition session for sec 3 and 4,anybody up for that? Hmmm.....

Some of you who are "LOYAL" enough to visit my blog everynow and then despite it being dead for quite a while might wonder what on earth made this girl blog? BOREDOM did although I'm now watching grey's season 5 epi 1 as said earlier, I just wanted to take my mind off it for a while and I thought it might be nice to do a little typing:)!

So I guess now it's about time, I've updated,I'm happy with it. Maybe I should come back again say another 2 months time? Hahaha...nah,maybe not. I'll try as much as possible to keep it posted. Till then,take care everyone!

Ohh,for those who are currently studying, 2nd year of A levels especially..it's another 2 months time till your june AS. Kick some ass...I know its not easy and it never will be but just hang in there because before you know,it's already coming to an end so preservere. At the same time,do enjoy being in the moment as u might never experienced the same exact STRESSFUL feeling again. I can't believe I'm saying this but yeah at times I do miss doing and practising questions. I miss going back to sch every morning and the hype in PS area when friends are all around. Sharing food during break time and walking from diff classes for diff subjs and in the mid of walking we bump into each other where we would just have 1 or 2 mins of gossips! Hahha..that was FUNNNN!! Overall, I miss the smsa life, I miss the teacherS especially.

2009-01-25T13:47:00.002+08:00

Gong Hei Fatt Choi to everybodyyyy!

I'll be going back to tutong soon. There's where I always am during this festive season. Steamboat tonight,GAMBLE,chit chat and HAVE FUN! I plan to have all the fun I can have this new year and I hope NOTHING AND I SAY NOTHING is gonna stop me because u know why? Result is gonna be released during CNY. May it be the biggest ang pau I'm gonna receive and the BEST-EST CNY I will ever have in my life.

Hello,result is my LIFETIME ANG PAU OKAY! May everything turn out to be fantastically well for myself and also to all that are waiting for their results.

Happy Chinese New Year to all....tata;)

2009-01-07T12:40:00.002+08:00

I know,well not exactly..haha! I didn't have a NEW YEAR post. I didn't welcome 2009 in my blog. I wasn't at home on 1st of jan 2009 lor. Yeah,an excuse there but actually I've forgotten to at least make a short post or whatsoever here.

So yes,sorry that I'm late but better late than never,WELCOME YEAR 2009! As the saying goes yesterday is history,tomorrow is mystery. We shall not look back into the past,let it go. Year 2008 has been a very tiring year overall,no doubt about that. It felt like time passed too fast but yet I must say I have no regrets. I worked thru the entire year and I'm glad about that,proud about that in fact and all I'm hoping for is a great result:). There really isn't so much of excitment last year,at least I couldn't remember any that I had before november 21 2008,all I did was STUDY AND STUDY AND STUDYY! Books were once my life! If there is an award for the nerdiest nerd, I stand a good chance really.

Gavin told me I'm a paranoia. Hahaha..I'm aware of that but I just can't help it. I always feel that I've not pushed myself hard enough, Ive not reached my limits but so often times I feel extremely tired and wanna give up so badly. When those times approach,there's this one person who is always by my side,GOD! I share my pain and my haradship with him,I pray everytime I encounter problems and I know he has always been there for me,with all the patience and guidance,THANK YOU GOD! Of course besides that, I have my ever so supporting family and lovely friends to go thru' thick and thin together. I truly/sincerely thank all of you.

2008-12-25T10:59:00.002+08:00

HO HO HOOOOOO!! Jess is BACKKK! Lolss... First and Foremost..

MERRY X'MAS to my family and friends:).

Sorry for abandoning this blog but my life has been super happening and busy! I just got back from KK and the whole trip was HELLA FUN! Not because I did alot of shopping or whatsoever,it's the laughters that we had. Goshh...damn funny! Anyway,yeah was there for 1 week,4 days spent watch Badminton World Super Series and I would have to say it's BRILLIANTLY SUPERB! No joke..AND AND ANDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD I FOUND MY TRUE LOVE! Haahahahhahaha....I saw this really gdlooking badminton player from denmark. Wahh...love at first sight? Awww...hahaha..pfffttt!! I came back telling tracy about it and she scolded me asking me to WAKE UP from my dream. I'M NOT DREAMING OKAY! Hahaha..Really baaa...I LIKE I LIKEEE!! I'm going to DENMARK:) :) :)

❤Joachim Persson❤

Muahahhahaa...crazzzyyyy!! I celebrated christmas yest in uncle lai's hse,had really great dinner but my christmas didn't end just like that. Hahaha..went to kev's house for countdown somemore. Had abit of alcohol and the whole scene was chaotic man. so many people were freaking drunk,vomitting and stuff. I'm the spectator as usual. Hahahhaha....overall it was great la. At least it was funny and I had fun. Heidi and I left the earliest because some were really drunk that they don't know waht the heck was going on and definitely couldn't wake up to go home so yeah Im not sure what time it all ended but I left around nearly 2am?

2008-12-09T00:27:00.000+08:00

I'M

Tooooooooooooooooooo

BUSYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY

To

Update...

Hahaha...sorry:)! Have a nice day. Lovee

2008-12-04T11:11:00.002+08:00

Now what? I'm BORED! Hahaha..my body is damn sore,really exercised alot lately and I FEELL GOODDDD~~~~. I haven't stepped into the gym yet,I might today if there isn't badminton. So I suppose I won't be going to bandar to join the gang for late night horror movie, I just went for madagascar 2 two days ago and it was hella good! Such a happy moviee:)! I like I likeee...I feel like watching BOLT though but hmm,I wanna exercise. I'm on a diet remember? Yess...

So today's plan is to go to the driving school in seria to register. I sorta drove yest night with mummy beside because daddy wanted to watch news and I thought it was FUN! I love I loveee....more of it to come? SUREEELYYY!!

Okay,lazy to blog already..haha,come back nxt time ya. Tata;)

2008-12-01T00:32:00.002+08:00

Let's start from 27th nov! I had a blast man! Haha...received so many red packets,so many pressies and had sucha great time with family and friends. Almost all guest that I included in the list turned up,THANK YOU SO MUCH! So yeah,they stayed till like 2.30am,drinking and eating after that helped me a little in clearing things up. Just to be short,it's all GREAT,GOOD,FUN!

Nxt day was a friday,wanted to go to bandar but then I woke up around 11ish only and it was rather rush to plan for anything so I stayed home the whole day. No badm since the MPH was used for christmas show or whatsoever. Quiet and boring day,good enough from a tired night before.

Saturday,firs thing in the morning,REGISTER FOR L license! Ohh yeah baby,got it now and the next thing is to register in any of the driving schools,I'm planning to go to the one in seria! Can't wait to learn to drive babyyy=)! For some reason,i'm so excited and I hope this excitement will last even when I'm taking the test and lessons. Went up to bandar at 5ish,nearly 6 for a family dinner,intended to stay over in tutong but then dad decided to come back which was HOORAYY!! Else I'll be dead due to boredom though it's only for a night. Sorry,but I'm really not used to staying there.

Taadahh..here comes sunday! Jie is BACK! Weehee..happy happy..This morning,I accompanied umm sherline to the saloon,after sitting for like 1hr or so,I decided to AGAIN do some adjustments to my hair so I sorta chopped of a bit. Haha..to be honest,I'd say I prefer this current one. ;)! Yup,had dinner in escapade,there were 17 of us,hella packed and uncle lai over ordered. We had hecka lot of sashimis and the food kept coming. Bill was $219 after a discount of 60+. So please,do the maths for if there wasn't any discount. That's how much food there was. Hahah...

Tmrw marks the beginning of december and in no time it's gonna be 2009 again,it's then about time my future will be decided. It sounds scary but that's part of life I'd have to go thru,for now I would just say I'm hoping for the best to happen. 1st of decemeber,the day MY DIET PLAN begins!!!!

Wish me LUCKKK!! Tata...nitee

2008-11-27T10:32:00.002+08:00

Today, Nov 27 marks the day I came into this world. I have been a part of the world for 18years now and I'm truly glad. Thru out this 18 years,there were bitter yet sweet moments,I've been thru thick and thin,I failed several times and it took me so much to stand up once again. I just want to say thank you to my family,friends and whoever that has played and hopefully will be playing a part in my life for all the patience,love,and care they've showered upon me. And most importantly GOD,who is always there to remind me that each failure is a stepping stone to a better tmrw or a successful future,else I would have been long gone. Without all these,nothing would be possible really.

I hope to make this 18th bday of mine particularly special because this is one particular age where we become LEGAL IN ALL WAYS! Hahaha...I mean yeah,legal! Hahahhaa...Throwing a BBQ party tonight, with all those efforts made by my parents,aunts, driving from bandar down to kaybee and to miri just to buy food for BBQ,ordering food from restaurants,renting chairs and tables,I TRULY APPRECIATE ALL THAT HARDWORK. Andd myself,hahahaha..having sylvester drive all the way to bandar yest just for MARSHMELLOW. With that,there's nothing I wish for besides everything goes well and everyone have FUN!

Finally, I wish myself a VERY HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY=)! Thanks to all who sent me text msges yest night,unfortunely I wasn't able to reply as I slept early,to those who sent me early in the morning and also people who dropped me msg in facebook.

I just wanna say THANK YOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU!

Muacckksssss

2008-11-24T10:26:00.003+08:00

I WANT TOOO WASHH MY HAIRRRR!! I feel that it's disgustingly oily now man! ARGHH!! This is the part I hate most when I decide to rebond my hair. Sighsss...anyway,

Been out for the past two days! Sat was party,yest went to miri to get some stuffs for thurs and I totally K.O-ed when I reached home. Hella tired. I reached home around what? 2am from alice's party and woke up at 7 the nxt morning to go to miri! Anyway,pretty much done for thurs now except there's bit more shopping left to do BUT I will not go out today because ppl might think that I've not bathed for couple of days by looking at my "SHINNY" hair. I feel uncomfy myself,the first thing to do tmrw morning is to wash my hair and change bedsheet! Haha..

Ohh yeah..last min was called for yum cha yest night. People were surprised that I actually turned up. It's holiday liaw okay,no more phy,maths,chem to stop me from going wildd!!!

I never liked taking picture,hence u see my pictures are always secretly snapped! I don't rememeber a thing about this particular moment lei. Rach is for some reason which I have no idea of busy with the comp,syl is forever drinking one la. Jeremy is listening to my pro lecture(HAHAHAHAHAH:P) and sim is agreeing with me? Hahahahhaa.....

I had a cup of absolute(peach flavour) mixed with shandy! I didn't want tod rink,I was sleeping at the sofa and this jack,i think he was drunk already keep pulling me there. Kev mixed it and I think its way too errmm...much of that alcohol that it becomes hard to swallow! I never liked drinking anyways..

I think I'm gonna stay in today laa..cannot go anywhere looking like this. =(

2008-11-19T19:54:00.002+08:00

Alrightyyy the worldd! I'm BACKK! Well not really..hahaha,I have ONE MORE PAPER LEFT PHYSICS MCQ AND I'MMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM..............

DONEEEEEE

DONNEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

ANDDDDD

DONEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!

Weehee...so excited man! I'd have to admit I'm so distracted lately,I keep thinking about what's gonna come,I mean ALL THE FUN! U see I'm finishing everything at 3pm on friday and I might be off to yum cha immediately,then badminton,nxt in line is sushi dinner. On saturday itself, Salon in the morn and TWO PARTIES at night. Right,that's scheduled as for now. Woohoo babyyy....alright,back to one thing. Some might ask why did not change my blog from private to public..HAHAHAHHA!!! Becauseeee horrr...I CAN'T REMEMBER MY PASSWORD MYSELF everytime I try to log in I have to think! Funny but yesss...sigh,I know I have to repair my brain,like seriously repair it. And the first thing to do is...

S.L.E.E.P!

Yes,all planned. Sleep,exercise,go wild=) Wuuhuu...you have NO IDEA how excited I'm now but still I'm trying to calm myself down,focus for the ONE LAST TIME and then I can become JOBLESS!

Suggested Do-s during hols:

0) BDAY PARTY=)
1)Gym
2)Badminton
3)Parties,go wild,go out,hang out whatever crap
4) EMPIRE Hotel stayover
5)Overseas? Yeah maybe,not sure yet.
6)ROT AT HOME

Ohh yeah,jie will be back on the 26th! Just in time for my bday. LOVEEEEEEE=)!

2008-10-24T00:13:00.002+08:00

Changes made! This blog is only open to invited readers. I'm not too happy about some of the readers,they're certainly not my friends or anybody around me in fact they're ppl that I DON'T HELLA KNOW! Anyway,I've invited some people by sending out emails but it doesn't mean i'm playing favourtism here,my friends are most welcome to read. I had to do this because there's no way I can just stop whom I don't want to read my blog.

Anyway,two papers down! I wouldn't say it's bad at the same time I wouldn't say its superbly well done. I don't want to be too postive yet too negative about things,I've given my best,whatever that happens it is then. I will continue to give my best to the remaining papers hoping that things would turn out to be the way I wish it to.

I have 12 more papers to go! Wish me luckkkk..and god,please continue to give me ur guidance. =)

2008-10-21T21:29:00.002+08:00

I hereby announce......

THE WAR BEGINS TOMORROW!

There's only 1 thing I'd like to carry with me thru this 1 month long war

ALL THE KNOWLEDGE MISS TOR,MR.NYIAU,MR ROLAND AND MRS KAMINI had imparted in me for the past 2 YEARS.

All those sitting for A levels,be it that you are my friend,classmate or whatsoever so long you're sitting for A levels, we're in the same boat,I wish you all THE VERY BEST.

A little prayer here,

God,Please stay with me,bless me and guide me. Amen

LET THE WAR BEGINNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN!!!

but before that,sleep first ey..ha! Nite nitee:p

2008-10-17T00:44:00.002+08:00

Siiiighh..kids thesedays are SPOILT if I may say! My lil cousin nicholas who is turning 5/6/7 either one of that figure will be throwing a BIG POOL SIDE PARTY and the food will be catered by EMPIRE HOTEL CATERING?! at one of the location in bandar which I WILL NOT BE ATTENDING! Apparently it's this sat and my youngest bro will be going since he's currently on his 2months+ long holiday. Wah lau man kids thesedays,they receive huge huge pressies,huge load of FUN! All my lil cousins have their houses loaded with TOYS!

My mum has already had the present ready,all wrapped up nicely and it's a pretty big one. Ji jealous yi xia but then don't have to buy toys for me la,give me that money,I'll use it to buy smth else. Hahaha..who knows it's SOFT TOYS which I could place beside my bed? Cute cuteee....=)

Anyway today was extra ordinary. We had a super last min plan to buy present for my two darlingS. It came as a surprise to them which was what we wanted. Hahaha..so all went well thank god. It was to mark the TEACHER'S DAY;)! We were chasing against time basically because it was already 11ish. Ah sim had to leave for bandar around 12+ so her flowers were made to deliver by 12pm. By 12.30 I still did not receive any phone calls from her and I was starting to be worried just in case she left before the flower was delievered but at last she called and the whole convo was FUNNY! As for ah lou,we sent the present to her house because we thought sending flower would be a dull idea as she had received it twice already.

Ah lou's dad : Who is that?
Syl : Uncle,it's me,cheryl's student. I wan to pass her smth
Ah lou's dad : Ohh okay...
Syl : Don't tell her ah..
Ah lou's dad : HUH?! DON'T TELL HER?

Hahaha...uncle lim,it's meant to be a surprise maaaa:). Anyway,both mission was accomplished. Thank GOD! BUT in the midst of it,I revealed the truth when I told ray and syl not to reveal anything. Actually,I wouldn't have to but aiyah at that time I couldn't think of ways,I should have put my mobile aside while I talk to ah lou and get back to ah sim so the plan of pretending could still go on. Well, at times it's perfectly alright to be S.T.U.P.I.D! It's my nature after all..MUAHAHAHHA:P! Really very the sorryyy ahhh....

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY NICHOLAS BABY=) Muackks muacckss

2008-10-13T19:17:00.002+08:00

Silent night, a lonely night
I didn't mean to wake you up I was leaving anyway
We never asked each other why
We only made each other cry

When the day becomes the night
And all that I have left inside is scattered on the wind

Didn't I give you all that love could bring
Didn't I give you more than everything
You know it hurts to end like this, when we've come so far

Don't tell me love is blind
Cause I know what I see
Tell me how you walk away when all you've known is me
And all that might have been
And what we left behind
Don't ever let a living person tell you love is blind

Memories of summer days
Laughing like a little child and lying in your arms
And we would own the stars like days of old
We'd make a vow to have and hold

Now we see the empty stage
The actors gone the empty page
The tears between the lines
Save me from these wild imaginings
Try to stop my heart remembering
Acting like there's someone else, when there's only me
So tell me what to say
Tell me what to do
Tell me how to walk away when all I see is you
Shadows on the wall
Pictures in your mind
Never let a living person tell you love is blind

Only god knows how much I love this song now! Obsessed man! Ive been repeating it over and over and overrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr again! I can't resist it because the lyrics is just beautiful phrased! I'm not too happy today after getting back my P3 maths paper. Lower than I expected though it wasn't bad but I'm pissed at myself for THROWING marks away..SERIOUSLY THROWING them because of carless mistakes. I looked back at it and there's only 2 sub ques that I didnt know how to do,as in i got it totally wrong. I threw a couple of marks coz I used pencil to show part of the working. I'm this worried because it would give me very negative thoughts about not getting A in the real exam if I don't get it on that paper. I so wanted to msg miss tor yest night to ask about it but I didn't la in the end.

Me: Miss tor,u only give me 1 mark here=(
Miss tor : You use pencil maa..this is part of the process,in real exam no mark also.
Me: sigh..but shown correctly lei
Miss tor :You laa..pencil pencil. If i dont do this,u won't learn. So don't give u marks...u better dont do this in exam.

Yeah! I know NO PENCIL allowed..I KNOW I KNOWWWW!! Sigh...but I act differently! Pfffttt!! I don't know what the heck is going on but I have been reading questions wrongly,seeing wrong figures and stuff. I seem to misread alot of things lately and it's getting on my nerve coz I don't know what's wrong when I'm so sure that my working is correct. I think I'm just too stressed,I need to take it eassyyy...BREATHH!!

Slow and steady wins the grace..I'm trying to set a new one..FAST AND STEADY wins ALL!

2008-10-12T22:00:00.002+08:00

If one day you wake up and found that I'm gone for good,don't feel sad.

Smile for me that I've finally came to realize if we continue to walk down that path it's gonna be a waste of time.

Smile for me that I'm now working for my future.
Smile for me because I will find someone who would love me more.
Smile for me because you know I would not have to suffer anymore.
Smile for me because you know I will definitely be in a better place.

Because I wouldn't be able to fake a smile myself,so each time you smile,deep down my heart is doing the same.

And most importantly of all......when u look back at this very day

Smile and be proud of what we've been thru' together.

2008-10-11T22:51:00.002+08:00

Am I in DENIALS?

OR

I just needed more time to realize?

2008-10-09T19:38:00.002+08:00

BACK! I know I hadn't blogged for couple of days,didn't quite have time. Schools back once again but at the same time before I knew it's the end too. Hahaha..today is basically the last day. I won't be there on sat and that's the beginning of study week. However,I've got to go back for a couple of days for two subs that is phy and maths. There will be LESSONS!

Have yet to really take a look at the schedule but I supposed it's gonna be tedious. At least at the back of my mind I remember it is while jotting down the time and dates.

Anyway,nothing so happening really except that I did something wrong in GP and was scolded=(! I would say,I was talked to in a rather unfriendly way but who to blame? MYSELF! I deserve it anyway so yeah! Ohh..did I say I screwed up my essay? Haha..I SURE DID!

Today's P3 test was rather challenging ehh! Godd...after finishing I was totally BLURR! Brain was exhausted man and there was this particular question which i still can't freaking prove. I'm gonna try it tonight again,soooooooooooooooooooooooo ANNOYING to not be able to get it!

RAWWWRRR!!

2008-10-06T14:24:00.002+08:00

FINALLY here comes the FEVER!

First day of school and I'm on MC! Perfecto=)!

Yest night was hella terrible! Pounding headache,barely slept,vomitted whatever I had in escapade. My tummy was basically empty for the whole night. I only had SKY JIUCE!

Currently on medication but medicines prescribed were weird.

1)cough syrup
2)Flu tablet
3)paracetamol
4)tablet for sorethroat.

I was expecting antibiotic because I'm sucha "PRO" that each time tonsillitis strikes which means it inflames next comes fever! It has always been that way eversince young because my tonsils appear to be bigger than others thus I have to be very careful with any food intake. I intended to have the tonsils taken away but doctor adviced NO unless it bothers me ALOT ALOT!

Tonsils actually act as a filter..for more details..pleaseeeee google. Hah!

Anyway....that's about it!

I'm feeeliiinggg WEEEAKKKK!!

2008-10-05T10:44:00.002+08:00

Had dinner in western buccaneer yest night,just to comment abit on the food,rather disappointing! I guess it's coz there were TOO MANY people so I guess they were pretty much messed up. Imagine their french fries were soggy!

Me: They must have like fried it one go and then put it there for quite sometime
Lawyer: You ask them to fry one by one for u maaa....(sacarsm)
Me: Nooooooooo..that's not what I meant laaa! As in they should fry that portion for a particular meal.

Act smart somemore ma this lawyer! Hahaha! I learnt 3 words from him but it;s mandarin so can't type it out! Damn funny laaa....very much entertained by him.

It was raining cats and dogs,thunder and lightning! Went home right after dinner,did chemistry and slept! Oh nooo man,sch's starting tmrw! So NOTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT looking forward lor. Sien...

Anyway.....

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MUMMYYYYYYY=)

And

Kevin Ngo Jeng Faat=)

Dinner in escapade tonight.

Tata..

2008-10-03T18:51:00.002+08:00

Wednesday - Headache

Thursday- Tummy Ache

Friday(today)- SORE THROAT?!

Conclusion- FALLING SICK?!

God,NO! Please...not at this time pleaseeee....

KEEP ME SUPER HEALTHY AND BRAIN ACTIVE for the coming 1 whole month! BLESS ME WITH STRONG RESISTANT IMMUNE SYSTEMS AND NON STOP GENERATING BRAIN CELLS!

I NEED THEM! Or maybe..someone shower me with TLC? Ahaha..might cure? Hahaha....lolss! JK! Hey,I'm doing "RESEARCH" okay..ahah! Pathetic excuse there=)

2008-10-02T22:11:00.003+08:00

This post is SPECIALLY FORRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR

THE CROWN PRINCE....Lolssss

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BROTHER!

Love loveeee=)

2008-10-02T18:58:00.005+08:00

Hi people! I have a terrific news to share today! I officially announce that I'M A MOTHER OF TWO! I have a daughter and a son now:)! Don't ask who is the father because.........I DON'T KNOW! AHAHA! Now,take a look at her..

I named her as Rajamani Tamilselvi
Height is 97cm and weighs 15KG!
She is currently in kindergarten:)!

But hey,I have problem pronouncing her name even! Sorry ahh..first time as a mom,it takes sometime okay..thru practise I'll be a better mom. Lols!!

Secondly,my son:)

I named him as Zaw Thiha
Height.......?
Weight......?

Sorry but I don't know my son's current weight and height. I will measure his height and weigh him if I get to see him one day. HAHAHA!

Alright,my "CHILDREN"

"Mummy" has always been proud of u as "mummy" can be and there's only one thing "mummy" expect from you two that is to study well and be a successful person in the future. Although "mummy" hasn't been by ur side eversince the day u were born,"mummy" is glad that now "mummy" gets to see both of u and be able to be part of u two by sponsoring you two. Wink winkkkk..haha! ❤❤

I wish u two all the BEST in any and everything u two wish to take and may your life be as smooth as it possibly could be.

Save livess....SPONSOR WHENEVER POSSIBLE:)

Before I leave...SELAMAT HARI RAYA to all the muslims=)

Tata..

2008-10-01T19:53:00.002+08:00

Bugger!! Bloody headacheee!!! What's the problem?! I still need to revise mann!

Anyway,I went out today! And I HELPED WASH A CAR! What so big deal right? I know but it's my first and what's more to that is that I washed OTHER PPL'S car and not even my own? Lolss...It was tracy's carr!!

Uncle simon: I can't afford to hire pretty girl to wash car wor..
Me: Haha! This is demo only..pay me the next time round;)!

Wink winkkkk...I certainly can't just stand there and let mosquitoes suck the hell out of my blood so I MOVED by working that is. Hahah!!!

Before that,went to jee juan for tea. After washing the car we went for PING PONG!

My currently new sport? Badminton is on hiatus baby! NO PLAYERSSS!!! :(!

HEADACHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!

2008-09-29T19:10:00.003+08:00

1.The person who tagged you is?
-Alicia Jane Siu Lee Sun=D

2.Your relationship with him/her?
- Friendship;)

3.Your 5 impressions of them
- Petite,lady like,fun,talkative,sweetheart

4.The most memorable thing he/she had done for you.
- Being apart of me..hah

5.The most memorable thing they had said to you.
- Nth?

6.If they become ur lover, you will?
- G and G repel,Haha!

7.If he/she becomes your lover, thing he/she has to improve on will be?
- ??

8.If he/she become your enemy, you will?
- Uhh,Never thought of and I do not want it to happen. NO IF-S!

9. If he/she dies, you will?
- DON'T CURSE! CHOYY!! TOUCHH WOODD!

10.What is it you want to tell for them now?
- ILY? Hahaha....gdluck for A levelss

11.Your overall impression of them is?
- GREAT=D!

12.How do u think ppl around you will feel around you?
- Errr....happy? wink wink..haha! I think they normally get "kek dao" by mee

13.The characters you love of yourself are?
- EVERY SINGLE THING!

14.On the contrary,the characters you hate yourself are?
- NOTHING=D

15.The most ideal person you want to be is?
- MYSELF! I just love myself for who I'M!

16.For people that care and likes you, say something to them.
- THANK YOU! I appreciate it alot be it i just get to know u or it has been a long time.

Okay,I only have till 16 coz I don;'t know who to tag or whatsoever so the rest of the questions can't be continued. Hahaha...:p

Tata...

2008-09-29T12:45:00.002+08:00

There's just too much uncertainties in life. We don't know when it's gonna come,in fact,at times we didn't even dream that it would happen to us. Thinking that he's the ideal/perfect guy to be with and suddenly you found out smth which just stabbed right thru your heart,not knowing what to do and wishing so much that you're just dreaming,it's nothing but ILLUSION! Everything just rushed thru' your mind for a min,you feel confused,unsure and u keep repeating to urself "noo,he won't do this...he wouldn't!" You try hard to believe you saw the wrong thing but facts never change,only we can change the way we look at things and start anew. In time as we go thru' these pain,we learn how to let go of it and not turn back as we step forward even if the step made forward was a forced one and believe that the future holds something more beautiful for us. It's awaiting....................

Time will heal the wound though leaving a scar,fate will bring someone to help cover up this scar as much as possible that you would not even see it once again despite it's still there.

All the best.

2008-09-27T16:47:00.003+08:00

Call me a pro if u like!

1) I couldn't wake up in time for maths class this morning. I was supposed to be in school by 8,I was there only at 9.30AM! I only woke up at 7.30 to msg ray asking him not to wait for me after that..

Me: Dad..*shouting*
Dad: Ahhh?
Me: I'm going to sch at 9.30 only
Dad: Why so lateee??

But I was already closing my room's door..went back to bed.

Woke up at 8.30,ready by 9.15 but dad was eating bread so got to wait a little..

Dad: Why today so late?
Me: Errrrr...no actually,I just couldn't wake up..
Dad: HUH? Seiii lorr..don't need to go already la like that
Me: NEED! Till 12pm maa..it's only 9.30 now:)

I felt too tired,my whole body is sore man! Even now when I laugh the muscle aches. When I reached school,I wanted to just walk into the class but I was smart enough to walk pass and peep thru the window and see if by any chance miss tor is in,normally she wouldn't because from 8-10 she has her PRE U1 class so we'll be left doing maths papers but today was different. Thank goodness I peeped first,saw her inside,I vanished! I went to the PS area and UNLUCKILY I saw mr.lim!

Mr lim: ehh jess,no class?
Me: Got :D

He walked into the staffroom and I guess he kaypo-ed to miss tor and miss tor walked out looked at me FIERCELY

Miss tor: YOU'RE LATE IS IT?
Me: Yup

stared at me and walked away..

I was like OHH SHIT!! I'M IN DEEEPPP SHIT! I think she thought that I escaped her class but hell no man! I wouldn't do that laa..

A while later when everybody gets their break,I walked into room 38 where she was,sat down in front of her and said....

Me: Misssssss toooorrr(sofftlyy...)
Miss tor: Where did u go? *nicely*
Me: I woke up too late:D!
Miss tor: I slept at 1am yest night also..and the day before,I woke up at 8.30am lei
Me: Wahh..ji li hai yi xia...I also slept at 1am but couldn't wake up! hahaha..

I took the paper they did while I was not around,gonna do it at home. Hahaha..she's not angry! Can joke and story me somemore. Phewww!!

Went for lunch with trace after class.

I'm planning for movie tonight,don't know jadi or not. I wanna watch X files! It's either gonna be me and trace only or 1 or 2 more coming. And also,it's either I'm gonna buy the DVD myself or borrow from ray.

So yupp..did some revision from 1ish nearly 2pm to 4.30pm! Phy ONLY! *faint*

Second thing as to why I'm sucha pro was because I added too much water to the porridge while I was warming it up! It looked sooo,too dry in fact for me so I added water but little did I know it was too much. Sorry laa,don't know how to cook yet!

Maid: Why ur porridge so watery?
Me: I added water..hehe
Maid: WHY SO MUCH WATEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEERRRR?!!! U EAT PORRIDGE OR DRINK PORRIDGE?!
Me: Your porridge too dry laaa..
Maid: also nonit to add so much righttt?
Me: sluuurrppp...yum yummm:)!

It wasn't to the extent that we can just drink it la..

Can't be bothered already..too hungry! Hahahaha...:p!

Wah,so many convos ehh today..tired also! Anyway,I got to get ready for ping pongg! Tata...

BTW,Mangoes are flooding my kitchen! Neighbours keep giving and we have it in our backyard too..now that I talk about mango,how could I forget my DARLING AH LOU..she lovess it but too bad,she's in SG! :(!

Tataaaa ;)

2008-09-26T19:47:00.002+08:00

Let's go back for a bit. Remember my last post about leaving them with one alternative that is coming to place for movie? Hahaha..they came but not for movie! They came to bring me out but then I was not free! I left my phone in the room,while I was outside the living room,the moment I return ah sim's call,they were already OUTSIDE MY HSE! I was in pjs and stuff so yeah I didn't join them. Ah sim came to use my toilet...haha! I so wanted to watch movie but

1)NO MOVIES
2)Ah sim felt rather tired...

moreover she has to go to bandar early this morning so called off:(! no business man my cinema..hah! They went to wywy yum cha after that. Syl kept saying that she felt extremely tired but the next thing I knew,she was in the car with them...PRO ALSO! Wanna say u slept in the car?

So todayy! I only did phy during the day and left for badminton rather early. Like FINALLY AFTER SO LONG! Back on court and what's up? CHEST PAIN! Fantastic eyy? Damn stuffy la SRC and I was OUT OF BREATH:)! Can't blame me what righttt? Havent played for so long..

I was saying this to eii min...

Sometimes when I go to bed at night,feeling all tired and exhausted from the entire day of studying,I wish that I have that someone who would under no circumstances pay attention to what I say and be interested in how I spent my whole day.

Eii min: You can call me,I also wanna talk to someone.
Me: You cannot be my other halff lorr..
Eii min: WHAT?! U DON'T WANT MEEE?
Me: I wantt I wantt..now that there's someone who want's u,I want u more. I love competing..AHAHAHAHAH!!

Pffftt....sorry ahh,today very hyper! Oke laa..enough luu...tata:)

2008-09-25T18:58:00.003+08:00

HAPPY HAPPPYYY:):):) MY AH LOU ISSS BACKKKKKKKKKKKKKK!!!!

BUT she's leaving again tmrw. Ji suang yi xia ma...HOLIDAYS!

Anyway,it's quite dead today! Went out for a short while only to meet up with the gang in jee juan for tea! Study-->tea-->study! What kind of life is that,I don't know but I'm living it. SIEN!

Ray suggested that we should go out tonight but yours truly said NO NO..haha! I left them with one alternative,COME OVER TO MY PLACE if u guys want. Watch movie again..wink wink:P! I'm currently ray's financial controller for the night or for tmrw because he left his wallet IN MY CAR and so I own it now. When I give it back to him..........................

ALL THE MONEY INSIDE WILL BE MINE+INTEREST FOR TAKING UP MY SPACE:)! Muahahahaha....

I arrested eii min na this morning online! Hahaha...she told me that she actually planned to come to my place early in the morning to study together but she couldn't wake up. Ji pig yi xia lor... I told her that she should have came despite looking like zombie so we can go for tea togetherrr laaa.

We'll have next time then...alrighty? Anybody else would wanna join? Please call.......2261111.

Errr...did i get that number right? Pizza hut's number! Hahahhahaa:p

Ahahaha...another convo with ray...high again!

Ray: Did I tell u I have toothache?
Me: Yeah! i know im too sweet for u to resist so each time u miss me,u would munch on chocolate because it just melts in ur mouth like how i melt ur heart..see,now got toothache laa..sighh,for what leh like that? don't torture urself like that...if its meant to be,it will be...HAHAHAHAA...HIGH MAN!
Ray: Hahahahahaahahahhaa...I don't know what reaction to give u!
Me: sometimes i can't help but to say that i'm brilliant...i can link everything possible..sigh,sorry ahh,i'm just talented....i didnt mean to be so good everytime and so smart and fast and alert...i just cant help it.

HAHAHAHA!! Don;t mind me laa..I'm just being hyper..

Btw,good morning peoplee:)

2008-09-24T17:08:00.003+08:00

I found out SOMETHING! EII MIN NA!

YOU'RE ARRESTED,YOU'RE WANTEDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD!!! I wan't u RIGHT NOWWWWWWWW!!

I can't help but to laugh about ray! hahaha....ji funny yi xia..

Ray: Nudgedddd
Me: yes?
Ray: Nth,lol
Me: well,u can say u miss me..haha! If u r shy,I can help u point out but if u really didn't then don't bother.
Ray: oh well,i miss u every moment so if I say it,I have to say it everytime.
Me: That's nothing but FAKE
Ray: If u see it that way,u think I simply be sweet to ppl meh?
Me: Haha! That's coz most of the time I say smth sweet first ma:)
Ray: Where got!
Me: Well,nobody can resist being sweet to me. ;)

Me: What did u study yest? till so late that u wake up at 12ish and can't have lunch with me yet u say U MISS ME EVERY MOMENT?! Well, mr.straight A's please give me some logical reasons so that I will be convinced.
Ray: I didn't study,I went out. Hahha..miss is from the bottom of the heart.
Me: Analyse the situation properly because there is only ONE SOLUTION..U R LYING TO ME!
Ray: are u that shallow? U need all these lunch and bla bla bla as proof?
Me: Noo..I'm VERY "DEEP".....HAHAHAHAHAHAH!!
Ray: How "DEEP?"
Me: I dont know,I never measured but i'm sure I ain't shallow...AHAHAHAHAAHHAA...
Ray: I smell something kinkyyyyy...

HAHAHAHA!!! Ji high yi xiaaa maaa!! Sighh...funny also!

Anyway,I went to try the new western restaurant ROCK GARDEN! NOT GOOD! I think it's still best to go back to bucanner for western dishes. And the drink i ordered..god! FIrst time in my entire life did I ever come across that. I ordered ICE BLENDED CAPPUCINO and guess what they added?

1)JELLY
2)COCO
3)PEANUTS

Somebody explain to me,is that meant for the taste or creativity? Lolss...

My lil darling bro is SICK! :(! Get well soon babbyyy;)

AGAIN,I just had a talk with SOMEONE and I FOUND OUT SMTH once more. All I want to say is that you've been imp since the very first day I met u and u will continue to be as times goes by,whether u believe it or not because I know sometimes my actions may make u think otherwise,I will still continue to say what I've said and I hope in time you'll find that it's nothing but the truth:)! Let's not let the existing distance that u said drift us apart. I mean what I said.

2008-09-22T23:05:00.002+08:00

Ho la! Today was what I would refer to as AH SIM'S DAY OUT! Hahah..she buzzed me for breakfast at 10ish and err we ended up in the restaurant around 11 so let's consider it as brunch. I had laksa,ray and ah sim had chic rice. We stayed in the restaurant for quite sometime because it was raining cats and dogs outside,talked about CHANGING HAIR STYLE:) and so we ended up saying "okay,let's go helen!" That was after ah sim ran some errands for her darling;)! We drove passed helen salon and holyy god,it was damn packed because HARI RAYA is just NEXT WEEK! We loitered around town for a bit and decided to go for tea,that was what? 12.45pm only and it was pretty much right after lunch man! I didn;t eat anything of course but the man of the day had two tarts. Ah sim herself went to buy DVD and she came with SEX AND THE CITY! With that,ray suggested to come to my place and watch DVD,so why not? Fun fun funnn:)! I bought like 6 tarts back home because my lil bro loves it and I thought I would wanna eat it too half way thru' movie so does the other two but it wasn't the case.

Before leaving town we went to helen(as in walked in this time) to ask for the price and when can we make an appoinment,GUESS WHAT?! IT HAS TO BE AFTER THE RAYAS! Ohh man,by then I'll be having classes and I'd have to wear tudung which sucks and I can't wash my hair for THREE DAYS!

While they were busy watching the movie I was busy too. With? MATHS! Hahaha..I was basically doing my own thing in front of the tv and taking a glance or two at regular intervals of time. Hahaha...I only actually really sat down and watch the last bit of it which was after I finished. My study plan for the day was still on hold until 6pm,well,the movie certainly didn't end at that time but we went out yum cha again. I was feeling really hungry by then but I only had a sandwich. Rang syl up but my poor baby was SICK! So yup,I got home nearly around 6pm,did not procrastinate a single min even because I was feeling really guilty already,studied from 6 till nearly 11pm. I had my dinner in between for a while and continued. Finally bathed and now I'm feeling superrrrr Ffffffffffrrrrrr......SLEEPY! BUT THENNNNNN......... I have one more maths paper waiting for me:)! I'd think I better get going now before I really fall a sleep.

Tata and nity niteeee;)

2008-09-21T23:53:00.003+08:00

It has been a long quiet day. The weather has been seriously dull too and I spent the whole day at home. Well not exactly,I did abit of shopping in the eve with mum and I bought lotsa JUNKS:)! Thank u thank u..I'm master at it:D! Hehehe.. Right after that,I dropped by ah lou's mum stall to pass her the mangoes. I shall let her mummy enjoy those mangoes first and when she comes back,hopefully the tree still bears fruit:D! ANDDD ANDDD ANDDDD

AHHH LOUU,I MISS UU BOOO....;)

Looking at people around me,some are counting down the days to the start of A level,I'm of course with no shadow of doubt feeling really tense but I'm trying to keep it cool and do as much as possible as time goes on. I just hope that things would work out as planned. For the coming days till the 21st nov,I don't see and will not see any excitement in life. It's just gonna be school,home,study,sleep,eat. It's gonna be a draggy,tough,tedious,awful,sad,miserable month to come but no one would be able to taste the sweetness before they taste the bitterness so to make sure that the coming days in the near future are sweet,the bitterness that has to be endured now would be all worth it. I'm trying to be positive and not give up a slightest of hope:)!

Ohh and daddy is SICK:(! But he still went for golf (18holes) somemore. Before that we discussed something about chemistry and when he came back...

Dad: Hmm,I'm still abit confused about what u told me..I still don't quite have a clear picture
Me: Hmmm..maybe that's coz u r sick and not able to think :D :D :D

He stared at meeee and walked away to the bathroom. Hehehe..well,I do make some sense there don't I? Yes I dooooooooooo:)!

Anyway,it's cleared now. We found the solutions and did some research from books. Weehee..

I was VERY MUCH updated by a friend of mine about her life. YAY! Hahaha..not quite anything happy though but it's alright darling,time will tell and remember what I've said?

-It's hard to make someone love you but if you've loved them with all ur heart,it's up to them to realize ur worth:)! Because to love them wholeheartedly is the one and only thing you're able to give,u know you've done ur best and if it doesn't return let it go and in time you'll find ur true self again.

I'm waiting to her if you can resists those temptationS! Muahahahahaha....:p!

Goodluckk...tata;)

2008-09-20T19:56:00.002+08:00

Oscar : Heh Heh Heh, kuku(syl) I know what to doooooo;)

I STOLE thiss..shh!! Wahahahha..:p! Doesn't he look cute? Lovelyyy!! Anyway,I've been sleeping all day long,well not exactly,I slept from 3 to 5ish but was in bed till around 6. I didn't feel like waking up at all! I just wanna sleep and sleeepp and slepppp BUT HELL NO man,no time to waste,I got to treasure every sec and make it as productive as possible..EVERY SINGLE MIN! Had 4hrs of maths class this morning...*faint*

I have very bad neck ache man..even during S1 test in school this morning. I can't keep my head down for too long. Ohh koko left for UK yesterday already,I didn't send him off but then I felt sad:(! Sobbbb...he's there already now anyways,good good BUT he brought the straightener back leiiii:(!

Ko: Mei,lend me ur hair dryer
Me : Okay,it's inside the cabinet
Ko: Ehh...my straightener..I bring back ahh,u buy here lor..sure have or else I buy another one for u when I come back
Me: *busy with my own work* Okay..baaa...okayy..mmm..

laterrr.....

Eh? Where's the straightener ohh? Only much later I re..a..lize he took it back lor. Lolss!! U see when I'm busy doing something I don't pay attention to others. Hahaha..everything also yah okay. Ji stupid yi xia!

I went to escapade for dinner yest BUT i'm still craving for raw salmon! Hahaha..I had only 1 piece yest,I wanetd to eat but don't know I keep taking other stuffs instead of what I really wanted. Hmmm...:(!

Okay,Lazy to blog already laa...tata:)

2008-09-19T10:11:00.003+08:00

Morningg!! Still feeling rather sleepy but I'M SUPER HUNGRY now! Went to bandar yest night,had steamboat in portsview,didn't eat much though. After that did alittle of shopping in yayasan and ta dahhh MOVIE TIME! I sounded excited don't I but the entire movie made me feel EXHAUSTED! Why? Because it was the freaking horror movie:

PHOBIAAAA!!!

And so? I constantly reminded myself it's only a movie laa,so scared for what. I felt so much like getting out of the cinema so I can open my eyes,it's tired to keep it closed most of the time when you're not sleeping.

God knows how disturbing the scenes are and I spend almost the whole night closing my eyes,the sound effect itself is good enough to keep u thinking what scenes are being played. In addition to that we have SYLVIA KO making those sounds,shouting(not LOUD LOUD but yeaa). She's adding "INGREDIENTS" to the whole atmosphere. Goshhh....I hate watching horror movies in cinema because they have super duper good sound system and so I get freaked out. At least if I'm watching it at home,I can lower down the volume as I wish and I have pillows around me,I DON'T FEEL EMPTY! I have nobody and nothing to hug in the cinemaaaa:(

Ray and syl enjoyed it like nobody's biz where as me,ah sim,ah lou were busy covering our eyes most of the time. Me and ah sim did it thru' out basically. Even ah lou's mummy watched it like a pro man! Applause applause..

You see,I never wanted to watch it in the first place,I wanted to go for COMEDY! Or sad movies or love movies..something that I can relate to my everyday emotions. Life is already soooo stressful,still wanna stress me more in cinema! Terukkkk alsoo!!! When I came out,I actually felt like "ahh..I can breath again!"

Ohh yeah and we bought like 4popcorns and each of us have drinks. Hahaha..as usual I don't finish my popcorn,I took like a quater of it only. Syl and ray finished their own and I passed them mine:)! I bought ice milo AND IT SUCKED!

We call it a bandar trip there!

I'M HUNGRYYYYYYY!!

I'MMMMM HUNGGGRRRRYYYYY!!!

2008-09-17T19:21:00.002+08:00

Haiyerrr.....stupid also! How could I remember one important thing for the past two day and when it comes to the actual day I TOTALLY FORGOT! I didn't greet karen until when I saw her personal message lei. I reminded myself constantly on monday and tuesday that TODAY WED THE 17TH OF SEPT 2008 is KAREN ANG'S BDAY!!! I REALLY DID REMEMBERR..I REALLY DIDDD!!! Sighh...I greeted her just now but it doesn't make it special already:(!

Karen darling..I'M EXTREMELY SORRYYY!! I feel so bad laaa....

HAPPY BIRTHDAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY from the bottom of my broken heart..SOBBBB!!

Ji stupid yi xia lorr...!! RAWWWRRR!!

I had maths class for 4hrs this morning,today is actually the start of school holidays. Hahhaa..but anyway,this maths class will be on for another three days. Not consecutive though..the next one is on sat. It was alright,at least didn't feel so dead la. However,today's P3 didn't go as well as it did for the previous timeS lor. I had to struggle abit and now when I think back about one of my working I actually realize what's wrong and believe it or not,I thought of it while I was taking my nap. I suddenly woke up,OHH SHIT! Blaahh...anyway,DON'T CARE!

Ohh,out for dinner now. Ciaoo...

2008-09-15T20:15:00.013+08:00

Heeeee:D

Hey Bosss...(kai kai)

Nic says: Pic AGAIN?!!!"

Geof,Chel,Nic

FREEZE NICC!

Chel :there's smth more interesting there

Peace yoo!!

Nic: Perfecto!

Childreeennn:)))))!!! Cutie pies! Some didn't come though:(! My lil princess finally K.O-ed at night while people were eating because she didn't sleep during the day time, she was totally hyper,sugar high! Look at her sweaty face and untidy appearance..ha! Running around,hugging and kissing mee:D! Or I did it to her more like it. Hahaha..she's so cute! I'd better do it now else I won't be able to anymore once they grow up!

I happen to see my dad writing some reports and err I came across one student's mark. (not to mention). Passed la though..

Me: Haa? You actually wrote this comment for this mark? IF I'm to get this mark,I can't imagine what u will say to me pa!

Piak! Hit me slightly with the pen he was holding...
Dad: This student wasn't a pure sci stream student,I must give him words that encourages him.

Me: Ohhhh...so good also u!
Dad: Yah,very hardworking...

Walk away...study:)!

Well,I had a small argument with a friend,not to mention who but I really didn't think i'm wrong. If u think I'm u r most welcomed to talk to me and tell me but I think it was good that I was straight with u at that moment because I do not wish to keep the grudge inside of me and bring it up the next time round and most of all I definitely would not want it to hurt the friendship.

Oke,time to bathe:D Goodnitee

2008-09-14T23:20:00.003+08:00

I'm bacckk from family's steamboat dinner in tutong! Haven't seen them in a while and all the kids had grown up. Like seriously GROWN UP! It was FUN! Food was superb,as always my grandma cooks well so does the maidS. Feeling rather tired after the whole day though there weren't much to be helped out,I think I personally didn't get enough sleep or whatever the reason might be,HOWEVER when I came back I FOUND OUT SOMETHING!

Read the following...

Syl : something wrong today..
Me: Why oh?
Syl: So wrong..
Me: Whyyyyyyyyyyyy?
Syl: MSN so silent! Without u here,my god!!
Me: Weeii,we hardly chat also ma..
Syl: this shows how noisy u r..
Me: NO! this shows how IMPORTANT i'm and how much u MISS ME because u sense the difference..just admit it dear. Hahaha!
Syl: I nudge ray and asked if he felt something wrong. We said yes but don't know what's wrong then after a while OHHH THAT XIU WAN IS IN TUTONG..lolss!
Me: Yeasehh..see!! Say what lei? miss me right? Sighh..ker lian lor u all. I also got miss u all de wor..
Syl: this shows how noisy u r la..
Me: No no..it's how much you miss me. How much U ALL miss me..hah
Syl: Wah,msn became so calm and silent,u came online for half a day only.
Me: Just say "i miss u" won't take ur life de lor..is it that difficult? Already very "meng hin" u all miss me..just say three words+ another three ILY also not hard ma.
Syl: VOMITT!!!
Me: sigh..some ppl just so S.T.U.B.B.O.R.N(to the power of infinity) lor..
Syl: S.T.U.P.I.D
Me: also + that..hah!

Ji funny yi xia..some ppl just refuse to admit de lor! But nvm..I know u know good enough la hor..HEHEHEHEHEH:P!

I think there'll be NO BREAKFAST tmrw morning because RAY forgot to tell his mum what we want! SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO RESPONSIBLE also that guy! Anyway,my uncle took a couple of pictures from tonight,I shall post it asap. KIDS HAD GROWN UP!!!!!!!!! They do not follow orders ANYMORE:(! Soooobbbbb...... sad alsoooo!!! Hahaha...

I guess that's about it laaa...

I WAS MISSED

I WASSSS MISSSSSSEEEEEDDDDDDD

I WASSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!

Lolsss....LMAO!

2008-09-13T18:37:00.009+08:00

Hooo laa!! Had a pretty nice/sweet nap this afternoon though for some reason I was turning and tossing because I couldn't find the best and most comfortable position? Hahaha...but anyway,I woke up around 5.50pm! Basically I woke up to feed my tummy,it was growling man. HUNGRY HUNGRY!! I wanted to eat the tapau ah sim bought for me from this morning but it was GONE:(! Anyway,thanks ray for his bread and ah sim for the bee hoon:D! Didn't eat much during lunch,shared with lou abit and ate some other stuff here and there. Hehehe..

Right,mr nyiau gave an inspiring talk this afternoon during class since he has already finished the syllabus. I'm not gonna go thru everything again,here's sorta a summary of what he said.

1) PLAN YOURWORK

2)WORK YOUR PLAN

The second step is far most the toughest thing to do. Most of the time,most of us will just be NO ACTION,TALK ONLY! Im sure most do feel it that when we're about to start working we'll have something else telling us there's something more exciting and entertaining to do. distracting us basically and all this boils down to SELF DISCIPLINE. It's how we manage our time,how much we can take and bring ourselves away from these distraction,think straight and focus. I myself procrastinate alot I would say but I always tell myself if I do not do it today,it doesn't mean I can get away with it,in fact,it bothers and I would have to do it another day. Why not I share my burdenS smong different days instead of putting everything in one day? It makes it heavier and harder to bear isn't it? I'm constantly reminding myself that whatever I do is FOR NOBODY BY MYSELF. I have to work because firstly,I'm not born to be a fast/smart learner,I need more time and secondly I have a target. Things don't just come for no reason,there's NO FREE LUNCH! There are times when one has worked hard but did not end up being rewarded but at least there was a chance they might succeed and even if they didn't there's no regrets. At least at that point,you have a chance to think that it's fine to not get it this time,maybe I have a better/bigger award coming. For those who work,they always stand a chance.

As mr nyiau has always ended his stories with:

BAA-Believe,Action,Achieve

EUU DECIDE:)

Okay! I guess it's some fun time now, I MOST LIKELY will be going to bandar on thurs,as of now it's pretty much a YES. As scheduled I've got quite alot of things to finish and I hope to get it done before thurs at least. Monday would be the last day of school. OFFICIALLY! Holiday starts on wed and tues is some parent day thing. I'm praying that things will be done by wed at least so I can PLAYYYYY on thurs. Weeeheee....keeping fingers crossed. Let's pray that everything goes smoothly.

That's about it for today. Oh yeah,before I leave HAPPY MOONCAKE FESTIVAL to all:D

2008-09-12T22:11:00.002+08:00

My Day Is UNEXPECTEDLY

EXTREMELY QUIET todayyyy.............

I'm ONCE AGAINNNNNN....

Lazy to bloggggg.......................Hehehe:D

Weekend is coming upppp,nth exciting as yet.

Ciao for noww...lovvess:)

2008-09-11T18:26:00.002+08:00

I finally ate what I wanted BUT I was disappointed. I think it's because I don't crave for it anymore so I don't think it's nice. Instead,I thought syls' mee goreng was nice:D! Hehehhehehehe.....We ACCOMPANIED ah sim to Jee Juan because she wanted it pretty badly. Initially,we sort of called it off because we couldn't reach syl and ray didn't want to go since he has to go out tonight so case closed. After that,I went to clean myself up and the min I wanted to blow my hair and plan to take a short nap right after that ah sim called.

Ah sim: Jesssssss....I want Jee Juan ohh
JeSS : Where are u now?
Ah sim: In your heart lor...
JeSS : Hahaha...*NTH NEW*
Ah sim : Ehehe..you're laughing so happily
JeSS : How do u know I'm? I just don't know how to ans u lorr...

The convo continued but then errr I can;t quite remember exactly so after that I tried to reach syl. Luckily,I remembered her other number and so I gave it a try...

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Syl : Weeeeiiiii (sleepy tone)
JeSS :WEIIII!!!!! SYLLLL!!! (hyper cos she finally answered). Our ah sim wants to yum cha wor..she really wants to eat in jee juan lor.. bla bla bla blaaaa.........

I talked alot..syl didnt want to initially because she was sleeping but then horrr she sacrificed for ah sim SO DID I! I thought it was worth it all UNTIL when I was ATTACKED by THREE OF THEM at once in jee juan! sighh!! Ker lian lorr mee..I'M HURT :(! They were planning to go to bandar one day during the hols to spend a night there and I kept quiet because I'm still not sure/don't know if I wanna go. I know,I've promised ah sim that once the exam ends we shall party and have fun but then it hasn't ended yet lor. It's just about to begin wor,there shouldn't be too much social life thesedays lor. I know,the question that would most likely pop up is "ONE DAY ONLY MAA! ALOT MEH?" Not alottt I knoww...don't scold me lei,I haven decided yet also,why so big reaction lei. EVEN IF I can't go,CAN'T U ALL FEEL MY INTENTION? I will try to go lorr..I REALLY WILL!! Who knows there might be surprise lei? Life is just full of surprises:):)! I don't mean to be so "sou heng" de lorrr...true laa! BEEEE...LIEVE MEE! In addition to all those,AH LOU gave me a super "SWEET" comment which pierced right thru' my fragile heart. I went totally speechless man!

One week-seven days don't look for me liaw ahh...*but normally I look for her de la* Ehehehehhe:p

HOWEVERRRRRR....

I still have Eii Min Na who really made me laugh!! My darling said IF she's driving tonight,she might come and look for me. Why? See me in sch,still not enough leii?? Miss me alooootttt alooooooooooooooootttt leiii...heheh! normal normal..hahha!! :p!

ARGHH!! What on earth is wrong with MSN?! Can't seem to sign innn!!

I'm singing off from here noww....bubyeee!

2008-09-10T22:56:00.002+08:00

I WAS.................................

ABANDONED! Right _ _ _? heheheheeeee:p

I WANT...............................

MAGGIE MEE + HAM + EGG!

I'm LAZY.................

TO BLOG TODAY.

Ciaooo....Nity Niteee. Hugss Hugss..

2008-09-09T17:35:00.004+08:00

I guess that's it,this feeling sorts of tell her it's pretty much done. Perhaps it had been long ago,just that she never realized and has been in denials all these while because she always sees a ray of hope but I guess at this point,she just had enough and came to realize that it was just an option in her life,she shouldn't have placed it as the priority. It was initially but things changed and IT'S FOR THE BETTER!

Everything happens for a reason,If you miss it this time it doesn't mean you've lost out. It simply means that God thinks it's not your turn yet.

Right then...what's next? Italian food for lunch today! Went to FRATS with the other halves but I didn't eat alot. I seriously think something is wrong! I didn't eat anything in the morning up to 11.35,I was really hungry and was having gastric during GP class which was the last lesson of the day and during maths class I was thinking of MAGGIE MEE+EGG+HAM in jee juan! but we've decided on FRATS earlier on,I was indeed excited about going to lunch and thought I would gobble down food wrong. I think I was TOO HUNGRY till I'M FULL! Make sense out of that if u can..hahahha!! I knew I wasn't too full or I wasn't even full yet,I shouldn't be coz I didn't have a single thing down my stomach for the whole morning and based on the amount I ate,I normally wouldn't feel full..could barely feel it even during normal circumstances but it's different today and has been lately.

I had a pretty long talk with daddy yest night over dinner. About academics of course..I told him about me feeling insecure because I'm not feeling the stress. He told me to take things step by step and maybe it's because whatever I'm learning now,I've learnt it before thus it became sort of like overwhelmed and I know what to expect as I turn the pages. He said it's alright,so long you do ur best,there's nothing you should be afraid of or should u even question yourself about regretting. After that we proceeded to the FUTURE which isn't far away,it's just TWO steps away I would say. He told me what's on demand now and what jobs would most likely be interesting,at least it's on a move. He suggested umm Actuarial science? I personally plan to do BIOTECH/BIOCHEM! Biotech is indeed the new frontier but then to work in Brunei,opportunity definitely is as slim as it possibly could be unless I work in countries like spore who spend BUCKKKSSS into doing research! That's not what I'm really concern or looking into now,I'm just all into my A levels.

Miss tor : Your exams has yet to end...IT IS JUST ABOUT TO BEGIN! I can so feel the force when she said those words. It is indeed just about to begin,,the million dollar question is HOW MUCH HAVE U PREPARED? We're fighting against the 100yrs old CAMBRIDGE as mr.nyiau had always said. He would then take the OLYMPIANS as an example..

One of his recent ones would the gymnast who spent YEARS of their life just to perform on certain apparatus that only takes them LESS THAN 1MIN and what's more to that is spending so much time in preparing doesn't necessarily gurantee them a medal. So keep on working,move ahead,move towards where we're supposed to be heading.

However,there are always achievements. MICHEAL PHELPS for example,set his goals in grabbing 8 gold medals. He surely did it..it might not be easy but he reached that point. So,whatever the mind conceive we can achieve.

Don't ask "WHY ME" instead say "TRY ME!"

Xin said she needed motivation. Hahha..and ohh talking about this girl. I saw her listening DISNEY songs thru MSN! Hahaha...so cute also uuu darling. Ji funny yi xia..but I do like certain songs from DISNEY:D! I like their cute cute characters:D

MICKEYYY;)

2008-09-08T18:18:00.004+08:00

I'M FEELING SUPER HIGHHHH TODAYYYYYY!!!!

Becauseeeee........I received this today from a USA fan! Thank uu thankkk youuuu:D! I LOVEEE ITTT!!

A picture of Jessica Hester Hsuan Suen Huen with her signature of it!!! Muahhaa..Actually,I have two more,sent by another spore fan sometime last year if I'm not wrong.

Both of these pics are taken while she was in spore! I've always appreciated what other overseas fan do for me or on my behalf because I have yet to have the chance to meet her in person yet,I don't know if I ever will in my life but being able to be a fan of hers is truly something great. Unknowingly,I've been supporting/liked her for coming to 7 years now. I remember when I first spotted her was when I was 11 years old and the series which I was watching was DETECTIVE INVESTIGATION FILES IV! It brings back pretty much sweet memories when it comes to this series. :D!

I've been feeling pretty much insecure lately and frustrated. I don't know if it's the hormones that are changing. I very much feel like I'm slacking lately,I don't feel the stress studying and this makes me feel scared! Really scared..it makes me think that I've not done anything or even if I did,I don't know what I've done because I just don;t feel the pressure behind. I want to feel the stress so that I at least feel the satisfaction about what I've done. Am I thinking too much? Or is it because when I study I do one topic per day for either physics or chem,it alternates and I'm now making a point that maths has to be done everyday so that I don't have to cramp maths in the end. Or is it because I haven been solving problems yet? Basically,just reading.. Thus I don't feel the stress when I don't know how to do or answer those ques or is it because I leave those ques that I initially didn't know how to answer and go back to it again and so I don't go crazy at that point? There seem to be alot of possibilities there,I'm just not used to this feeling..I JUST FEEL LIKE I'VE SLACKED AWAY and NO WAY I can afford to. It's just 1 or 2 months away. Tell me somebody tell me am I doing the right thing? Am I doing okayyy???? Assure mee please..I'm feeling scared seriously! If this feeling isn't a sign that I'm slacking away,just that I'm changing the way I approach things, GOD! I THANK YOU but before that please let me know if I'm doing fine here.

STRESSS MEEEE OUUUTTTTTT,BOOKKSSS!!

Some might think I'm mad,who would want to be stress out right? Well,I don't mind being stressed to the max these coming months as long as it promises me something. I would do anything it takes and sacrifice what I could to get what I'm aiming for. Promise me I will get it and I promise you I will give u all that u want.

MY DARLINGS + SWEETHEARTS and I went yum cha this afternoon and we ate soooooooooo much! The whole table was full man! Lolss..Now,I'm having a problem. This is a very very bad habit. I always ordered and I only take one or two bites after that I pass it to people around me. I have no idea but I just don't exactly feel like eating,I just want a mouthful of it,get it's taste and that's it. I hardly feel hungry thesedays for some reason even if I eat very little in the morning.

Haaiiyerr..why like alot of problems de lei? Very sien de laa...Don't give me all these crap at times like this lei..sighh!! I need guidance from upstairs..GUARDIAN STAR,where areee youuuuuu???? :(:(

STEPHH! Thank you soooooooooooooooooooo muchhhhhhh! ❤

2008-09-07T21:25:00.003+08:00

I'M CALLING FOR CAROLINE CHIEW XIN HOONG FOR THE NTH TIMES ALREADY!! Haiyerrr...this girl! Where on earth are uuuu laaa? Status put online but never replied...I WANNA TELL U SMTHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!! Sighhhh.......................

My sunday is super quiet man! I was HOME ALONE:)! Totally alone..my maid was out too,day off! Luckily,I had tracy kho who accompanied me for a bit this afternoon. Where are my halves some might ask. All gone for one day..totally out of touch except for ah lou who I did talk to for a bit.❤❤:)! I totally have no idea what ah sim was up to for the entire day,I've not spoke to her for two days already? Syl is the superb one! She woke up at 6ish PM! She slept at 6AM! *faint* How about my man,ray? No sight to be seen also..no where to be found,nothing to be heard from only till 6ish in the eve. My loveeeee goesss toooooooo ahhh louuu!! Hahhaa...I'm thinking,if she hadn;t called my mum,would she send me that msg? But it's okay..the fact is that she was the only one I talked to among all. Lolss...ji emo yi xia! I lovee all laa..wait for my LOVELY BFAST tmrw morning okay..:D

We went out to do some stuff AND I FINALLY BOUGHT CHOCOLATE! Right,there's one thing I seriously don't understand,I've been craving for choco for the past 2 to 3 days but nobody bothered to buy for me or did I even bother going out to buy so when I actually bought myself a big packet of choco today,my family came back with PATCHI somemore. What I don't get is that,why is it when U r so in need of that something,it never appeared and when you totally forgot or don't quite want it anymore,it just comes to u like as if it hasn't came for ages. Somebody pls explain this theory and make some sense about it in me. It's when you yearn/long for that something sooooooooooooo badly it jsut never appeared. WHYYYYYYYYYYY? Just when you're about to change to some other things or move away,it comes to youuu!!! It just seems to apply to most of the things. I still don't get...is it a game which I'm supposed to play?

It's been raining for the whole day mann....so sad also the skyyy! Sighh..makes me feel dull and lazy!! With this good excuse,I'm going off now..hahaha..nityy nitee

2008-09-06T19:01:00.004+08:00

Daaannggg...I had really bad gastric just now in school and I'm having it again after I woke up from my so called beauty sleep. Well, there was lotsa choices for breakfast this morning because ray ta pau and ah lou's mummy fried bee hoon too and there was won ton. However,I always have this bad habit of eating abit here and there. I had only a bit of fried kuey teow and a mouth full of fried bee hoon? One or two won ton? That's about it..the thing was that I felt full at that moment for some reason so didn't quite feel like eating. Therefore this leads to very bad gastric around 11.30am. It was between the end of my maths period and the beginning of my physics period. Thank goodness phy was only for a while 11.35am to 12.15pm! Otherwise...The moment I reached home,I dumped everything one side and when I was about to walk to the kitchen,I had few sms in and calls which I had to settle first so again it was delayed. It's one of the few times I had my lunch before bathing coz I was seriously seriously hungry. My dad bought me LAKSA! Half way thru' eating,my bro came in and said he wanted to try and so I passed him half which meant I shared again but then I didn't take his chic rice though. I just stopped eating...I didn't feel full but I don't feel like eating again though I was really hungry,weird huh? I know lorr...I always like to share food here and there. I love eating bits and pieces from different different people(bad habit) so I get a taste of everything and I always think that I make the WORST order..for some funny/unknown reason I think people's food is always nicer. Hahahha...Anyway...

I'm supposed to be a busy lady tonight because there's wen juan's bday party in cottage and anthony's bbq party BUT why is yours truly at home? This is because......uncle lai and aunty bee geok is coming for dinner,mummy ordered alot of food from restaurant. Koko is going out for steamboat,mummy will be going out at a later time and so it would be rude for me to walk out again,therefore that's why laaa......

During lunch..

Koko: I have steamboat party tonight..
Me: Really? Where oh?
Koko: Adwin's place..
Mummy: I'm also going there but bit later,adwin's dad called me
Me: Huh? Ya meh..so happening also u all..I got party too,in that case I'll go to my partieS la..
Koko: Cannot! Uncle lai and aunty bee geok coming for dinner
Me: Why for? U all not around also ma..nonit lor..
Mummy: too late...called already lor..I'm ordering food from outside also
Me: Haaaa........okaayy thenn!

I have something to point out today...RAY is for some reason very bitchy today!! He had alot of sacarsm in most lines he said today. What's ur problem today? He messaged me at 6.50AM to ask me what time I'm going to school. Why? It's the trend now to msg people early in the morning is it? Miss tor msged syl at 5.30 am and now ray msged me at 6.50am. I should try to msg all my halves at 4.30am? Hahahhaa...Ray said that I hurt him today... He had this convo with ah lou

Ray: I'm very sad today
Lou: Why?
Ray: This morning when SOMEONE saw me..the first thing she said was "WAH SO EARLY ALSO"(sacarstically fo course..it was 7.57am lei,class starts at 8)
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Me: Weii..I'm sorry,I didn't know you went to ta pau
Ray: Ta pau for her still say that to me.
Me: Sorry sorrryyyyy..I didn't mean to..I didn't know u will ta pau maaa....

Later in PS area..Ray added

Ray: some people ahh...backstabbed me also not so painful..YOU! FRONT STABBED ME RIGHT INTO THE HEART
Me: I don't back stab people de lor..I say it right in front..Sorryyy baa...really sorryyy....SMILE lerr..smileeeeeeee:)!

I'm extremely sorry darling..I feel bad..I feel guilty..I DO I DOOOO!! Sighhssss.....u see for the whole day I can't be bitchy to him only he could do that to me FOR TODAY!

I'm sensing a really happening night in my hse man..they're currently playing THE BEIJING OLYMPICS SONGS! So funny also..ji feel yi xia! Hahaha..

I got to go now..I'm really hungryy!!! Ohh I received a compliment today..Mrs called my name

Me: Ooo ouu..did I not get it right again?
Mrs.K : How long did u spend to do this? did u put ur heart into it or just do for the sake of doing?
Me: I spent around 1hr,anddd I errrr did it coz it was homework:)
Mrs.K : Okay..let me point out to u ur problem
Me: ehehehe..okay:D
Mrs. K: Your main problem is you do not put full stops. U join in 3 points all at once and that makes it unclear at times but your points are really really good. Try to add fullstop and continue again instead of throwing all ur points into one whole chunk!
Me: Okay..I'll have more fullstops nxt time..

Reading a part where there's like 3 lines written straight without fullstop and she went
Mrs K :Read this for me in one breath
Me: Ehehehhee....:D:D
Mrs K :You see...you have got the command of the language you can write it beautifully and easily,this is far most the best piece of work you've given me. It's a matter of whether u want to do it or not.
Me: Stared at her like stupidd...and again SMILE!

What should I say? complimented lei..hellloo! Hahaha..Oh I should say thank you right..forgot! I don't find GP tough from the beginning I just find it troublesome at times and it gets in my way most of the times. I have to do research and write stuffs down because to me GP is just english why does it require so many things? By the time I finish revising for my core subj,I would be extremely lazy to do GP already therefore WORK UNDONE,NOTHING TO BE HANDED IN! It's a rare case that Jess yeo does her GP! Yupp..it is:D!

2008-09-05T22:31:00.017+08:00

While typing this,I'm waiting for the pictures to finish uploading..it's taking soooooooooo long for just one picture to be completed and I apologize that it's abit small and blurr but pelase do take sometime and have a read because it really does mean something. Sorry that if it hurts ur eyes,,I received this email from Jack,I don't know if its coincidence or he saw it from minna's that I needed to be inspired thus send me all these thru email. Whatever it maybe,I really do enjoy reading and I hope to receive more of these stuffs. It brightens up my day and ohh thanks to my darling minna for sending me the site fills with inspiring notes/messages/quotes. Muchhh appreciateeeddd:)! On the other hand,xin posted something specially for me and min in her blog..again its really touching to know that I'm one of ur special one,I'm not saying this for the sake of saying but do bear in mind that you're equally important to me as I'm to you. You're surely undoubtedly one of my special ones too:D!

Soooo...what about today? I spent most of the time at home revising but then I feel like I've not done much really? My hmewrks are done and I'm super happy about it,I finally adjusted my phy graph and the gradient now is just exactly the same as the answers. If only I can be so accurate during exams. It's an achievement I would say though it's just a small one,it brings joy to me and now I'm trying to take things a step at a time. If I fail to do it the first time I attempt,I would just have to learn to leave it aside because when things are not meant to be seen at that moment,regardless of how long one spend on looking/staring at it,it just wouldn't appear/click so thru this I've experienced it myself to put it aside for once and get back to it at a later time. IT WORKED!

In addition to this,I shall put up this message
Titled: Do Not Run "Do not run through life so fast that you forget not only where you have been but also where you're going. Life is not a race but a journey to be savored each step of the way."

I spent my day with tracy and sher,was supposed to meet them up for breakfast this morning as planned yest night but then the very last min of yest night I canceled because I tot my family will be going out for breakfast today and I wanted to follow HOWEVER when I woke up,my bro was happily swimming in SRC with his friends,my dad went to ta pau already and mom went to WORK?! I thought they said BREAKFAST? Haiss..I didn't wake up late lei...8ish AM not late maaa. Why all dumped me at home? Everybody happily doing their own biz. :(! Not forgetting,my half who abandoned me yest though she strongly claimed that she didn't( I.L.Y still,i think? Hahahhaha:p) had tea with us and ray came along little while later. BUT again I have two halves missing..syl and ah sim. WHY? Ah sim had to meet this financial planner andd syl accompanied her. Accompanied it was said but I guess she enjoyed her dim sum more than anyting else? Hahahhaa....*syl don't kill mee..I.L.Y:D*

I went for badm session today in SRC! It was hellaaaa stuffy and I had slight chest pain because I hadn't been playing too often and in that kind of atmosphere,can kill lor seriously. I had really good games though it was really exhausting. FUN FUN FUN! Challenging and I love challenges?? hehehe:D!

Weekend is approaching,I don't quite feel anything because everyday is just more or less the same. The schedule is always the way it has been from the beginning of time. There'll be a prayer for all the muslims in examination classes tmrw morning till 10am. I was planning or thinking to go only at 10am buttttttttttttt.....this stopped me..

Me: Pa,what time are we going to sch tmrw? They're having this prayer for all the muslims tmrw morning..
Dad: Huh? Is it? What time?
Me: *SURPRISED* huh? You don't know?
Dad: Why for?
Me: Ohh..for exam thing I guess..I don't know..till 10am.
Dad: Okay,we'll leave at 7.30am then.
Me: Ooooouuuuuukaaaayyyyy:(!

I didn't want to ask for more since he ended the convo with 7.30am. I take it as a hint because there was this talk last sat as well and I went to sch at 10am only. Once is enough,it shouldn't be repeated too often,I understand that dad:)! Moreover,I have to hand in my GP work to mrs.kamini tmrw morning. 7.30am it is then lorrr....very big deal meh...cheyyyyyyy!!! It does make a difference to go at 7.30am and at 10am lor actually but whatever la...bring my own work there to revise.

Okay,finally..uploading completed. Enjoy reading them..the words are still read-able laa...not too bad. I LOVE LOVEEE those cartoon characterssss:D. They play a role in cheering me up too..they're just soo ADORABLE AND CUTE CUTEEEE!

Till here then...nite niteee;)

2008-09-04T17:57:00.003+08:00

As she lays down on her bed and the moment she closed her eyes everything flashed thru' her mind but there's only one thing that lingered in and played like a movie except that it was mute. She didn't understand why she had to be in this situation she thinks that it's just unfair on her side but later something seemed to come and tell her that life isn't always about her,it's not always about whether or not it should be fair. She shouldn't always be thinking why she's in this position instead she should be trying hard to overcome whatever she's facing. One part of her seem to understand that but another side of her is just so stubborn that she just don't want to even try to work for it. HOWEVER,it isn't end of the world yet..now at least she's trying to work everything out and all she need is TIME. It wouldn't take her long,it came naturally and it has got to go naturally too. She is slowing letting it go on its on,letting it just flow as freely as the bird and kiss it a last goodbye. She promised herself that IT HAS GOT TO GO REGARDLESS OF HOW TOUGH IT MIGHT BE and she's trying her very best to make it work. She reminded herself though not constantly that it came once and now since that it's gone,it will always be even if at this moment she tries to think that it's not entirely gone she's just dreaming basically and there's a point in time that she would have to wake up and face the reality. So why not do it now? She asked herself. All she could think of was "that's right? What am I still waiting for?" She then set herself free and took a step forward,she's hoping that she will soon be able to take many more steps forward without hesitating and walk right into a future that promises something.

Alrighty...back to my part now! Nothing so happening today..I finished class at err 1? I finished my test paper at 1 and I went to the toilet to.....................errrr....call syl(shhh!! not supposed to) because she msged me about ah sim wanting to have lunch and apparently she's super hungry! Class ends at 1.20pm actually and after the secretly made phone call I went back to class to have a short talk with miss tor. Hahhaa..everybody was still doing their work and we were chit chatting behind. Lolss..of course about academics la..though she did add in some of her own childhood stories,as always:)!

I left school around 1.30pm and quickly rushed home to shower because they kept reminding me that my poor ah sim is very hungry and I normally take a long time getting myself ready but still when they reached my hse I haven even bathed yet. I was still sorting out my stuff..excuse me but I can't just dump everything one side and rush into the toilet like nobody's biz right? So yup..they waited..ehehe,thank uu laaaa;)! I was already very efficient lei,I didn't enjoy my bathing time:(

Ray needed 15mins to get ready too anyways so I'm still not the slowest:)! Right,so we ended up in NAM WAH for lunch..it was already what? 3pm when we finished eating and TO MY SURPRISE ah sim was still hungry so we went to our regular place again for tea. Gosshh..like pig man! I wasn't full too because my food SUCKED in NAM WAH. I didn't finish it and so I had one tart and a piece of bread in jee juan coffee shop while ah sim who ate a whole bowl of laksa later had at least half a bowl of mee goreng with egg AGAIN?! she shared with syl who also then ate one plate of fried noodles. Doooinnkkk! But anyway,ah sim needed all those anyway. We hang around town for a bit before going to COURT FURNITURE for some reason syl was just being high that she wants to have a look. Well,one of the reason was for ah lou's chair? Or smth like that..but then she was exploring it more for her own self.

La di da di da.....after all that,I finally reached home at 5ish pm! Lolsss..haha! Fun day! Except that one of my other half(could most likely guess who) LEFT ME! Such beautiful weather today we were supposed to spend our evening together at the beach burning calories and watching sunset BUT she ABANDONED me:(! Ohhh noo..I'm so sad..I need to sign off now and sob harddddddddd...SOBBBBBBBBBBBBBBB:(!

Ciaoooo.

2008-09-03T17:33:00.005+08:00

*Yawwwnnn* Good morning people...I TOTALLY K.O-ed man this afternoon. I slept from 2.30pm to 5.20pm! I never slept for that long,longest was 2hrs only but for some reason I couldn't wake up or at least I didn't feel like. Why? 1) NEW AIRCOND thus feeling soo freaking nicee... 2) IT'S RAINING OUTSIDE! Weeehee..what can U do besides sleep and enjoy this weather? After the beauty sleep,when I opened my eyes,the first thing that came to my mind was TONIGHT'S SCHEDULE IS? I sense a very extremely busy night coming up because I have like tons of things to do. Crap..I hope to fit them in tonight,I HAVE GOT TO FIT IT ALL IN! I had a very exciting moment in school-NOT! I had to gulp down one packet of food FAST! Like seriously fast because now it's fasting month and so it's RUDE to eat in front of the malays or should I say we're not supposed to eat in front of them to respect them and SO even out water bottles have to be hid inside the bag since they can't drink as well. I'm afraid that mr.roland would come out and shout the hell out of me since he already asked us to placed our water bottle inside the bag,what more eating right? I gulped it down like anything AND MY CHEST HURT! Ohh god..when I finished

Syl :WAH?! YOU REALLY FINISH SO FAST THIS TIME!
ME: ..............COULDN'T SPEAK!
syl: AHAHAHAHA!!!! okay okay...
Me: OUCHHH....CHEST PAIN! *shouting*

Crap! I seriously rushed it down like I've not eaten anything,I could barely enjoy the taste! Jeeezzzz!!! But anyway,thanks ah lou for tapau-ing,much apprecaited:)

I woke up feeling bit unwell,slight headache? slept too long? I don't know..I went to the kitchen,thinking to make some hot choco but then milo is OUT OF STOCK in my kitchen. I did ask daddy to buy but then he didn't hear me? I told him to buy a couple of stuff since he wanted to go shopping..my list included

1)Juices
2)JUNK:)
3)milo..

He bought the first and second only..awhile later..

Me: Aunty,no milo yet?
Aunty: Nope,dad bought coffee
Me: *looking blurr* ??? coffee? I didn't say that,did I? *whispering to myself*

No sunset,NO beach today obviously because it's raining out there and my poor darling ah lou is SICKKK!!! Poor baby...huggss huggss:) Running nose?

REST WELL AND RECOVER SOOOOOOONNNNN!! ღ

Ohh..I'm CRAVING FOR CHOCOLATES!

2008-09-02T13:58:00.003+08:00

01. Would you fart inside an elevator?
-I don't think so? I never tried though..

02. What will you do if the person you like doesn't like you back?
-Nothing? And live my everyday with a smile:)

03. Miss Piggy + Kermit the Frog = OTP?
-I don't understand this..

04. Are you confused as to what lies ahead of you?
-Pretty much yeah

05. What's your ideal lover like?
-HIM! whom I share the rest of my life with

06. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone else?
-Both..

07. If the person you like does not accept you, would you continue to wait for them to change their feelings?
-Hmm..good question. I most likely will if he really is so worth it.

08. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
-What can I do? Continue with my own life..MOVE ON yo!

09. Is there anything that has made you unhappy recently?
-I don't think so..I'm very happy recently,I have my HALVES(lou,ah sim,syl,ray) by my side:D

10. What do you want most in life?
-YOU and a bright future ahead.

11. Is being tagged fun?
-How fun is answering question?

12. If you find out that your best friend is going out with your boyfriend/girlfriend, how would you react?
-TAKE IT AS U LIKE! I'd thank the guy and start to pity the girl.

13. Who is currently the most important person to you?
- GOD!

14. What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?
-FUN! My lovelyyy minn;)! Crazy,hyper and wild!

15. Would you rather be single and rich or married and poor?
-single and richh lorr

16. Would you rather be a bum or be a busy person?
-BUUUUUSYYY so I wouldn't think so much and torture myself.

17. Would you give your all in a relationship?
-I will BUT my principle in life still has to hold.

18. Define LOVE.
-Beautiful and unique. It completes a person's life

19. Milk chocolate, white chocolate or dark chocolate?
-MILK+WHITE

20. If you played a prank on someone, and he/she fell for the trick, what would you do?
-Ahaha..laugh first and be serious. (my darling ah sim fell for one of my prank! Muahaha) If that person is angry,say sorry and disappear IMMEDIATELY:D

And I'm gonna tag nobody..lazy lei! Hehehe....I'm going out at 3pm. UNO--> TEA--> EXERCISE! It's err 14.12pm now. Andd yest night was bad..not only did I have migrane,very bad tummy ache in the middle of the night! WTH?! Anyway,I'm pretty alright now..so yeah..SMILEEEE:D

2008-09-01T21:45:00.009+08:00

Hello! There's quite a number of pictures to share today but before that let's do a review. Obviously,today wasn't a holiday because moon was not sighted yesterday night thus the first day of fasting has to be tmrw(tues) though I was hoping hard that holiday would be today. Anyway,I WENT JOGGING TODAY:D! With ah lou,syl and one unexpected guest AH SIM! Hahaha..she was complaining that it's so far and we have to walk to and fro but she whatever it is even with all the complaints she still did it,WE DID IT:D! I find it FUN so did my ah lou. Syl had no comments,ah sim definitely was I don't know..didn't enjoy? She expected us to just walk a short distance and enjoy sunset! We did enjoy,didn't it? I FIND IT FUN FUN FUNNNNN...weehheee:D! Ah lou two pics from yest and today's jog. So here goes the picS!

Look at the beautiful sunset. Close your eyes,visualize and indulge in that moment. It's perhaps one of the most beautiful thing we can have in this world,that feeling it gives when u walk on the beach,look at it as it goes down slowly and vanish,listen to the breeze and breath the clean cool air,can it get any better? TOTALLY STRESS FREE man,except that today's air was bit yuckie:(! It stinked for some reason:(!

Andddd nextt,I proudly present OUR SHADOWS! Lolss..heheh! We're certainly not that tall laa...but why do we appear likewise? I don't know..do the research:D! Ohh..we went out for dinner too except for one special guest who had to go home for dinner with her daddy.

Then taaa dahhh..here comes koko:)! He just came back from his SUPER FUN trip from HONGKONGGG!! Each of us have a gift from him and I LOVE LOVE mineeee;) Apparently,it costs him HKD $1400+ which is after conversion 200+ our money. Gulllppp....BUT I LOVE IT I JUST LOVEEE ITTTT;)! I snapped a couple of picS and here it is..
GUESS babbbyyyy:)! It's my second guess watch,I received my first one during my 17th b'day,bought by ah lou,syl,xin,kar yee,min,ray. Did I add someone in and miss someone out? But anyway,the important thing is I love it too and appreciate it alot.❤

I'm sorry that the third one has to be so blurr,my hand kept shaking..heheh:D Before I can wear it on,I need to have it adjusted first and I'll bring it to the shop ASAP! It's too tempting..it's too nicee...I ❤❤❤ it to the maxxxxxxxxxxxx!!

Mum: Meeii...very nice horr? Let me wear first la
Me :Huh? Whyy? Nice leeii??
Mum: Bring it to the shop..
Me: I will i will...hehehhe:D!

My dad has a POLO shirt...wahh lauu!! Slurrpp...lil bro has a NIKE shoes...mum has a pretty expensive bracelet i guess..then after all that happy words and smiles and laughters suddenly "cheyy...in the end..I pay alsooo!" Hahaha...but then it isn't the money that counts,it's the thoughts and the fun of receiving things,yes? Hehehee.. Andddd koko bought tart back from HK! YUM YUMMM....:D!

Let'ss EATT! And ohh..I have a pair of red puma socks too;). that's bout it...bubyee! I'm going to enjoyyy!

2008-08-31T10:23:00.004+08:00

Good morning again,I came across this fantastic email,my heart really sank in while reading. Take a short break and have a read if you even bother to.

I was walking around in a Target store, when I saw a Cashier hand this little boy some money back.

The boy couldn't have been more than 5 or 6 years old..

The Cashier said, 'I'm sorry, but you don't have enough money to buy this doll.'

Then the little boy turned to the old woman next to him: ''Granny,

are you sure I don't have enough money?''

The old lady replied: ''You know that you don't have enough money to buy this doll, my dear.''

Then she asked him to stay there for just 5 minutes while she went to look a round. She left quickly.

The little boy was still holding the doll in his hand.

Finally, I walked toward him and I asked him who he wished to give this doll to.

'It's the doll that my sister loved most and wanted so much for Christmas.

She was sure that Santa Claus would bring it to her.'

I replied to him that maybe Santa Claus would bring it to her after all, and not to worry.

But he replied to me sadly. 'No, Santa Claus can't bring it to her where she is now. I have to give the doll to my mommy so that she can give it to my sister when she goes there.'

His eyes were so sad while saying this. 'My Sister has gone to be with God. Daddy says that Mommy is going to see God very soon too, so I thought that she could take the doll with her to give it to my sister.''

My heart nearly stopped.

The little boy looked up at me and said: 'I told daddy to tell mommy not to go yet. I need her to wait until I come back from the mall.'

Then he showed me a very nice photo of him where he was laughing. He then told me 'I want mommy to take my picture with her so she won't forget me.'

'I love my mommy and I wish she doesn't have to leave me, but daddy says that she has to go to be with my little sister.'

Then he looked again at the doll with sad eyes, very quietly.

I quickly reached for my wallet and said to the boy. 'Suppose we check

again, just in case you do have enough money for the doll?''

'OK' he said, 'I hope I do have enough.' I added some of my money to his with out him seeing and we started to count it. There was enough for the doll and even some spare money.

The little boy said: 'Thank you God for giving me enough money!'

Then he looked at me and added, 'I asked last night before I went to sleep for God to make sure I had enough money to buy this doll, so that mommy could give It to my sister. He heard me!''

'I also wanted to have enough money to buy a white rose for my mommy, but I didn't dare to ask God for too much. But He gave me enough to buy the doll and a white rose.''

'My mommy loves white roses.'

A few minutes later, the old lady returned and I left with my basket.

I finished my shopping in a totally different state from when I started.

I couldn't get the little boy out of my mind.

Then I remembered a local news paper article two days ago, which mentioned a drunk man in a truck, who hit a car occupied by a young

woman and a little girl.

The little girl died right away, and the mother was left in a critical

state. The family had to decide whether to pull the plug on the

life-sustaining machine, because the young woman would not be able to recover from the coma.

Was this the family of the little boy?

Two days after this encounter with the little boy, I read in the news paper that the young woman had passed away.

I couldn't stop myself as I bought a bunch of white roses and I went to the funeral home where the body of the young woman was exposed for people to see and make last wishes before her burial.

She was there, in her coffin, holding a beautiful white rose in her hand with the photo of the little boy and the doll placed over her chest.

I left the place, teary-eyed, feeling that my life had been changed for ever.. The love that the little boy had for his mother and his sister is

still, to this day, hard to imagine.

And in a fraction of a second, a drunk driver had taken all this away from him.

Ignore it as if it never touched your heart.

The value of a man or woman resides in what he or she gives, not in what they are capable of receiving.

Gaahh...I have tears running down my cheeks AND I had this stupid dream yesterday night, I wouldn't call it a nightmare but was a sad one,the next thing I know,my cheek and pillow was wet! Lolss..I never cried during my sleep..that's the first time ever! Anyway...have a nice day people:)

2008-08-30T22:17:00.002+08:00

Ta dahh! Home again! Had dinner in buccanner with lou and syl just now! Rather romantic isn't it? Hahaha..shared caesar salad and club deluxe sandwiches with ah lou because I had a small bowl of fried rice at 5pm and she said she wanted to eat wonton at home after this dinner as well but she didn't in the end instead I came home feeling bit hungry still,I sat down with my dad,had bit of fried rice and mixed fruit cocktail with daddy:)! Father and daughter bonding,mom came in for a bit to kaypo for a while..hehehe! We went to soon lee for a bit after having dinner and we bumped into TRACY AND SHERLINE! Well,was supposed to have dinner with them but then I was taken already. Well...say what lei? Hahhaa..first come first serve:)

Not only did we see tracy adn sher,I saw jason too and we were told that there's drinking session in gav's hse tonight but then sorry thats not where I should be. NOT MY PLACE YO! Hahaha...tracy,sher and syl will be there..these 3 LIFELESS PPL! Hahaha joking joking..I had to come home coz I've got chem to do.

Jason : Go laaa....just go only..you know the ppl there one
Me: Don't want la..not where I should be..i don't drink
Jason: Go laaa..we do chem there!
ME: Hahaha..very funny also horr uuu..byeeeee:D

Anyway,you ppl can enjoy drinking. Hahaha..trace,sher and syl's parents are all away currently. Coincidentally,all three in bandar. Lolss..

I'm starting to feel sleepy already so I guess I better start off with chem before I sleep and JESS YEO SIAO YIEN STOP PROCRASTINATING!

2008-08-29T10:31:00.003+08:00

Good morning birdies and plants,good morning people,GOOD MORNING THE WORLDDD!! Lolss...I dont think i've blogged in the morning? This is perhaps the first if not the second time only. Anyway,that's not the point.

I went out for dinner yesterday night to escapade AGAIN! Well,I shouldn't actually be saying AGAIN because I asked for it:D! Hahaha...They were nice enough to accompany me,and they include my ah lou and syl:D! Weeeehheee....as for my other part AH SIM,she OVERSLEPT! someone pls teach me how to forgive her? Ray had another dinner with mr.chong zhao ren in jolene. After dinner,syl dropped me home to take my house key and after that we went to pick na jie up! She's freaking on man..she brought two bottle of hardy's! Headed straight to lou lou's hse. They played lammi while I just sit and watch,chit chat and have fun! We were expecting ah sim to be right there already. The ever so smart her actually went to escapade to look for us but we left. She went around 9ish I suppose. She did msg and said she's gonna give us surprise and there goes her surprised nobody got it! Hahahaha.... Apparently,she didn't BE..lieve we had left,she walked around a couple of times looking for us. I was thinking why would we lie? Sighh..her expression was so funny when she said she didn't BE..lieve we had left..sighh,my darling..very the cute lorr!

Ohh did I mention that we saw some really "nice scenes" in escapade,hahaha! My darling ah lou kept commenting on it..hahaha..At some point I did think it's bit too much specially "LOOKING INTO IT" but then if it was me I would quite do the same thing just that not SO much. For me,there's always limit to everything we do:)! We indulge in those moment for a bit everynow and then,that'll be just fine and good enough. Anyway,that's how they enjoy theirs.

After a whole night yesterday,I'm having backache now for some reason. I didn't feel like waking up this morning..it feels like it's the sympthom from my monthly friend but it's not supposed to be coz it just visited me like not too long ago! Why miss mee so muchh meehh? Lolsss...I don't know,maybe I got it from ah lou?..she's having backache too but mine is the lower back,or maybe it's due to badminton. God knows why..

I;m pretty please with my maths P3 paper,58/75 which is 78%. The highest is 61/75..which is i don't know,do the maths pls! Hehehe..When I was informed that mis tor was super pissed about that paper's result,I felt scared because I really thought that i've done it alright,I didn't find it tough tough..it was do-able and I was expecting something out of it because I prepared it much earlier. She gave back all the papers yesterday and it all was going good,she called one by one to the back of the class,where each of us sit down adn she go thru the p3 with each and everyone. My name being lettered Y is of course the last and so I was only sitting and chit chatting with ray,kar yee,elaine,chu han and whoever la..it was FUN! Hahhaa..I made two phone calls somemore,one to ah lou and one to ah sim:D! Hahahhaa....miss tor didn't catch me,she was too busy! I guess it was around 2.20pm, I was saying 'ohh no..mis tor hasn't called me yet..2.20 already wor" A few secs later..

Miss tor : Who has I not called?
Me: Raised both my hands up..SMILE AT HER
Miss tor: HEEHEHHEE...ur name is Y,u got to go home at 3 lor
Me: *with that look* Haaa? Seriously? no laa..don't want laa..hehehhe
Miss tor : Hehehe...

Right after kar yee..I went to her..

Me: Cherrr...
Miss tor : Okay okay..you! What's ur problem?
Me: my problem? it's close to A but not yet A..I need two more marks
Miss tor : Doiinkkk...you this ahh(we were supposed to let her know which one do we not know and not say what i've said! Hehe..i do know where i've done wrong la,i'll get the mistakes corrected myself)..can u find any extra marks or not? Maybe from other papers which I marked wrongly? find them from any of the papers and I add it in here.
Me: Don't have already wor..
Miss tor : Don't have ahh,actually it's 59/75 but due to one of ur inaccurate 3 sig fig I had to deduct one mark.
Me: You don't deduct that mark lor....but then nvm la..59 also not A. Nvm la..58 it is then
Miss tor: Hahahaha...okay laa..
Me: Okay...Can I go home now?
Miss tor : while recording the marks...mmm can okay can go
Me: Looking at her..I don't know if she's being serious or just merely answering me

I went to pack up my stuff...get back to her again..

Me: Miss torrr...I can leave now,yes? no?
Miss tor: Yahh..can can...okay class,whoever that have seen me can pack and leave.
Me: Okaayy miss tor...BYEEEEEEEEEEEEEE:D! Seeeee youuuu;)

IT WAS THE BEST 2HRS MATHS CLASS! Like market like that..hahah!! Partly coz I was in good mood also laa...coz I expected worst when I was informed that she's mad at our set. Yest was a good thurs,great morning,superb afternoon,fabulous night;)! Can it get any better? I guess not...:D

OHHH!! GOOD NEWSS! My uncle's wife gave birth to a baby boy yestt! Weeeehheee..happy happy! Another family member..another baby!! Welcome baby boyyy;)

2008-08-27T16:38:00.002+08:00

If you hadn't been happy with yourself all these time,it's about time you wake up and RE..A..LIZE what you have got around you or within you because most of the time we tend to take things for granted. The following is perhaps a perfect piece of story as to why we should start to feel grateful with what we have and not ask for too much at ti

Here goes..

Have you ever, at any one time, had the feeling that life is bad, real bad, and you wish you were in another situation?

You find life make things difficult for you, work sucks, life sucks,
everything seems to go wrong...

Read the following story... it may change your views about life:
After a conversation with one of my friends, he told me despite taking 2 jobs, he brings back barely above 1K per month, he is happy as he is.

I wonder how he can be as happy as he is considering he has to skimp his life with the low pay to support a pair of old parents, in-laws, a wife, 2 daughters and the many bills of a household.

He explained that it was through one incident that he saw in India
that happened a few years ago when he was really feeling low and
touring India after a major setback.

He said that right in front of his very eyes he saw an Indian mother
chop off her child's right hand with a chopper. The helplessness in
the mother's eyes, the scream of pain from the innocent 4-year-old
child haunted him until today.

You may ask why did the mother do so; had the child been naughty, had the child's hand been infected?? No, it was done for two simple words-
- -TO BEG!

The desperate mother deliberately caused the child to be handicapped so that the child could go out to the streets to beg.

Taken aback by the scene, he dropped a piece of bread he was eating half-way. And almost instantly, a flock 5 or 6 children swamped towards this small piece of bread which was covered with sand, robbing bits from one another. The natural reaction of hunger.

Stricken by the happenings, he instructed his guide to drive him to
the nearest bakery. He arrived at two bakeries and bought every single loaf of bread he found in the bakeries. The owner was dumbfounded but willingly sold everything. He spent less than $100 to obtain about 400 loaves of bread (this is less than $0..25 per loaf) and spent another $100 to get daily necessities.

Off he went in the truck full of bread into the streets. As he
distributed the bread and necessities to the children (mostly
handicapped) and a few adults, he received cheers and bows from these unfortunate. For the first time in his life he wondered how people can give up their dignity for a loaf of bread which cost less than $0.25.

He began to tell himself how fortunate he is. How fortunate he is to be able to have a complete body, have a job! , have a family, have the chance to complain what food is nice and what isn't nice, have the chance to be clothed, have the many things that these people in front of him are deprived of...

Now I begin to think and feel it, too! Was my life really that bad?
Perhaps... no, I should not feel bad at all... What about you? Maybe
the next time you think you are, think about the child who lost one
hand to beg on the streets.

"Contentment is not the fulfillment of what you want, it is the
realization of how much you already have."

When the door of happiness closes, another opens, but often times we look so long at the closed door that we don't see the one which has been opened for us.

It's true that we don't know what we've got until we lose it, but it's
also true that! we don't know what we've been missing until it arrives.

The happiest of people don't necessarily have the best of everything; they just make the most of everything that comes along their way.

The brightest future will always be based on a forgotten past,you
can't go on well in life until you let go of your past failures and
heartaches.

I received this as a forward mail. Beautiful piece of message written.

Back to my part today..I did NOTHING besides wasting time watching tv,online-ing,reading mags,searching the dictionary! Haha..it feels good and I did go out for abit to seria for DQ and walk around,after that down to kaybe again to get my eyebrow trimmed;). I shall be leaving home around 6ish for the badminton match. Super early dinner today man..and I'm eating alone...so sadd!!

I had this craving for sushi since this morning,wanted to go out for lunch with the gang but then my ah lou has class laaaaaaa:(! Anyway...that's about it for today laa..nth so happening! I'm just annoyed by somethings and I feel lost!

2008-08-26T20:52:00.004+08:00

CANN YOU SMEELLLLL THE FREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEDOOOOOOOOOOOOMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM?!!!! Hahahha..I CAN I CAN! Lolsss....It finally came to an end,GOD THANKS YOU! The whole process was alright abit and terrible for some. Anyway,I get to at least be away from sch for one day tmrw since some of them still have bio P1. I'm not trying to get myself to do anything tonight and tmrw,I just want to be totally off books for abit before the cycle begins AND REPEATS ITSELF AGAIN! The BIG AND FINAL one is coming,it's NOW OR NEVER! I will give in my best and I'd hope for the best to come to me and I shall say no BUT!

As for noww..All I could think off and want to do is just take a good and short break,have a kitkat! Lolss..seriously,I think i need to recharge and not get burned out in the mid of the upcoming intensive revision.

"GOD, the coming days are gonna be tough I'm sure and I would love to have u by my side to guide me thru and to tell me that each time if there's any failure it's a stepping stone to being successful. I doubt I can do this alone so please please be with me under no circumstances and show me the light to the path which I'm supposed to follow. I REALLY NEED YOUUUU:("

Well welll welll..Had really great badminton matches just now! Hadn't been on court for quite sometime but based on the performance just now it wasN'T all that bad. I'll be having a match tmrw evening if nothing is postponed or canceled.

There has been pretty much thoughts flashing thru my mind lately..I don't think I'm supposed to be thinking about it but I just can't help it. I've tried to pull myself away as far as possible but somehow it seemed like the harder I try,the more I fall into it. I'm jsut trying to stay as who I'm and where I'm now,why is that even so difficult? Feelings like this is nothing but a TORTURE! Grrrrr...RAWRRR!! Somebody please hold me tight and bring me alongg...don't leave me behindd:(:(!

JI EMO YI XIA! Lolss....but yeah lorrr...sighhhss!

2008-08-24T22:23:00.002+08:00

I Listened to MIN!! I'm back here again!! Sorry sorrryyy for not updatinggg..I know it's frustrating to open a page and there's no progress at all but schedule has been pretty shitty,I so want to bang my head on the wall man. Today is a bad bad sunday! I STUDIED FROM 8.30AM TO 4.30PM FOR PHYSICS and I continued again at 8pm at night till around 10! Goddd....I had ENOUGH! Why do i have to study so much? Hahaha..exam is just tmrw! Whats worse is that when I recalled what I've done,I felt like i've not studied anything for some reason and get so paranoid,worried and thus made me very annoyed!

I never felt so exhausted,the last time was when I was in sec 5 and I did the same thing for chem..8hrs straight and I collapsed right after the exam! My last paperS will be on tues! GODDD..IT'S MATHS P3!! Phy p1 which I doubt im gonna revise again,I see that TIME DOES NOT PERMIT! Haha! Blame timeee?

Ehhh...I don't know laa..I cannot think noww! I could only feel that my brain cells are telling me to stop and let them rest. And I will because I need them tmrw morning! Till then......gdnite;)

2008-08-20T17:45:00.002+08:00

I WOKE UP AT 8.18AM TWICE IN A WEEK! Successive morningS lei..this morn and yest morn! Hahahaa....Lolss....yeah! OHH NOO!! MY MSN IS NOT WORKING ANYMOREEE!! NO smges can be sent,I think it's infected with virus and lately I have all these unknown ppl adding me asking for S.E.X! WTF?! Do I sound or look or make u feel that I'm really that FREE?! Helloo..I HAVE LIFE okay! So annoyed by them and then another one is FRIENDSTER! It's sooo out of control! Haiyerrr these ppl...Sighh!!

Chem went smooth today..hahahha! Happy Happyyy!! But then it was rather stuffy in the hall! The coming days are really hectic and I'm trying to rush thru syllabus so yup has been sleeping late waking up early! It's gonna end soon and I hope it all ends with a SMILE!

I had this "SOMEBODY TALK TO ME PLSSSSS" on my Ebuddy personal msg and when I came back from exam and yum cha I saw these

A: "I'm ur somebody...what do u wanna talk about?"
B: I'm talking to you nowww
C: What happened to youuuuuuuuuu? STRESS ahh?
D: Yess..what you wanna talk about?

Ray: I'm going crazy
Me: YOU'RE GOING? I ALREADY AM!
Ray: so you're dian po?
Me : I'm sen jing dian sot(mandarin) po:)

Hahahhaa....so funny also these ppl! I'm just stressed out abit laa...hahha! In the coffee shop,I had this convo with one of the owner there

Owner: What do u want to drink?
Me: I want to eat drink..ehh,I mean I want to drink....errr....
Owner :Weii...time is moneyyy
Me: Don't worry,I wont run away..okay I want milk tea
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Walking towards the kitchen

Owner :So? what do u want to eat? I cook for you
Me: Um..I want this noodle with ham and lots of vege
Owner : *repeating*...okay:)

I waited for quite a while lei and I wanted to tell him "weiii,time is money lei" but then it was one of the worker who served me. Hahahha..

I'M STRESSED! TMRW P6!!! ARGHHHHHHHHHH....can somebody possibly understand me NOW? :(

2008-08-18T18:43:00.002+08:00

AHAHAHHA! I can;t help but to laugh when I was greeted HAPPY BIRTHDAY! Lols..one of my friend thought that 818 is my birthdate because he said that he sees this number in my MSN and thought that it's my big day and so he sent me happy bday sms. Hahaha..I was like "huh? happy birthday? to me?"

Hahahhaa..oh well sim! It's very nice of you but do it once more when it's 27th nov. Hahahaha..anyway,I'll think that msg is for JESSICA HSUAN! Weeeheeee;);)!! Hahahha...Alright so anyway had phy papers today I thought it's pretty alright,hopefully it will be too but I'm not quite too sure about my design question. I hope it's sensible and at least applicable? And the weird thing is,elaine and I got the same ans for the whole of question 2! While comparing answer we were like "are u serious?!" All the same lei..hahah! Well,what can I say? GREAT MINDS THINK ALIKE! ;)!

I was disturbed from my beauty sleep by syl! Was called up to go yum cha with ah sim and lou lou. The other interesting thing....not! was that there was one "pin tai lou"(canto) who followed us all the way to a shop! SHIT man! Damn scary,he waited for us outside the shop and luckily my dear friend heidi who happen to work there helped us by letting us go by the backdoor! GODDD!! Scarrryyy man! THANKS HEIDIIII;). I saw miss tor in town

Me: MISS TORRRR!! (SHOUTING FROM FAR)
Miss Toe: Heyyy!!! Result out already?
Me: Not yet ohh..sighhh...very worried lei! what are u doing here anyway?
Miss tor: Ohh no la,I want to buy slippers
Me: Ohhh...
Miss tor: Okay laa..

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Miss tor: Don't worry la you...
Me: Hehehe:D! Okay...byeeeeee:D:D:D

Then I told myself "Mmm..don't worry ahh..be good! enjoy" Lolsss

I have to remind myself constantly to not worry...it's working okay it is! I have ALOT of things to do tonight man. DAYM! Stats and chem..gullpp!! I wanna do maybe 2more stats paper or read chem first then do stats! Yeahh..read chem first coz wed is chem paper 4!

GOD, So far things had been going quite smooth,I hope more good news on their way and may my whole exam turn out to be great too and kindly guide me thru' this whole process. Amen!❤

2008-08-17T22:42:00.002+08:00

I was tagged by my babyyyy minna!
state 15 weird things/ habits/ little known facts about yourself

I,JeSS Yeo

AM a BIG TIME PARANOIA!
HAVE to waste time walking around the hse or doing unecessary things before I start studying.
HATE ppl nagging and shouting at my ears
DISLIKE going to toilet in the middle of the night
AM AFRAID OF THUNDER AND LIGHTNING:(! I remain stationary each time there's thunder and lightning
LOVE watching horror or psychological thriller but I'm SCARED. Pfft! I want but I'm scared? Lolss
HATE taking pictures. my friends know me well
LOVE LOVE coffee,latte and what so ever of that sort..weehee:D
SPEND most of my time with books and computer. = double B - Boring and Bad!
AM very FORGETFUL:(
Get emotional easily and suddenly.
HATE to be accused and taken granted of!
DISLIKE ppl who thinks they are the greatest of all and think so highly of themselves.
HATE white chicken(chic rice for eg) or any chicken that still has blood on it!

Last BUT CERTIANLY NOT LEAST,

LOVE/HAS ALWAYS JESSICA HESTER HSUAN SUEN HUEN!

Okay,off to bed now...gdluck to me tmrw! May 18/8 be a good day for mee,PLEASEEE!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY DARLING JESSICA HSUANNNNN!!! LOVEE YOUUU

2008-08-15T20:10:00.003+08:00

I've DECIDED that things cannot be changed whether u like it or not,whether or not you're STRESS bout it because whatever is done cannot be undone so I've DECIDED to wait and face it with all the courage and not be afraid of it because I HAVE TO CONTROL it and NOT BE CONTROLLED BY IT! Yesss...I'VE DECIDED! Whether I like it or not,I'd have to deal with it because at this point in time I cannot change the cards I'm dealt just the way we play the hand so I'm trying to ask myself to go towards it and not to move backwards. Life shouldn't be lived with full of fear,it should be a happy one so next time these stories and memories can be passed on to the next generation and the next next and next next next so it becomes something to be cherished and meaningful. It then becomes a beautiful picture that stays in everybody's heart without the need to paint. Well,I'm being emotional I know but YUPPP,I SHALL JUST FACE IT WITH NO FEAR! If it didn't turn out to be great,I would hope it wouldn't turn out bad although I of course wish it's gonna be great so I need not resit again but sometimes things just doesn't turn out the way u want or expect them to be but we can still always hope. There's a saying which I've always loved is that "Hope is the only gift we can give ourselves and it's the only thing that remains when all else are gone" Lose whatever,don't lose hope otherwise there will seem to be NO REASON at all as to why you SHOULD stand up on both feet again to work for it. OKAYYY??? I'm trying to convince myself okayyy....I've shared this with my family too and they've been trying hard to calm me down everytime,my mom said "why worry? cambridge examiners won't see this and so your grades or marks won't change,you're jsut torturing urself,what for? POINTLESS isn't it? You'll just end up in depression and by that time it's YOU WHO NEEDS A PSYCHOLOGIST"

The last line I told myself was "Have faith,trust and confidence,you'll be fine. Don't worry okay..you will be alright."

Okayyy....let's do a quick review...so far the exams had quite been alright i would say...some went great laa...overall so so lor. I'm also hoping that this time the qualifying is gonna turn out good too because grades will be forwarded to shell for scholarship. So yuupp..got to do well so I shall FOCUS!

Okay okay???? Yessss OKAYYYY!!

IT WILL BE FINEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!

2008-08-11T19:53:00.002+08:00

Ho laaaa peeepss! Chemistry prac just now was alright IN THE END but the whole entire process was really really muddling,I finished just 2 3 mins before the time was up but I should really thank god for that I managed to get all the cations. However,my first expt seems to be slightly inappropriate because my gradient was 0.5 and so I wrote it as 0 order instead of 1st order. Apparently, some who got the same gradient as I did,they just wrote 1st order,I thought of doing so too but I thought it's bit not sensible because 1 and 0.5 is indeed very far. so yeah...anyway..we'll see!

After the chem prac,I felt really blurr...hahahha! I think i was too tense in the lab la..I was so afraid that I'm not gonna finish because the tests needed to deduce cations were indeed very troublesome though there's only 5 expts to carry out. Sighhh..I was doubting all the way while doing the salt analysis because most of my observations seem to be NO REACTION! Buttt anyway,the important thing is that I got all the cations correct la...THANK YOU LORD!

Ba2+,Mn2+,MG2+!

Hmm...phy prac tmrw afternoon! I so need to go thru them again tonight and get some other stuffs done laa if possible. So yup,I guess that's about it? I'm very lazy to blog la thesedays..sighh! I can't quite recall every single thing I do.

Ohh actually right after chem prac I wanted to go out for bread or some light food coz I didn't have my lunch but Syl didn't want to go out,ray didn't want to,ah sim was busy doing work in sch though she can make it but I thought only both of us,not so fun therefore CANCELLED! HOW COULD YOU PEOPLEE? NOT CARE ABOUT MEEE? Sobbbb....nah,actually I understand why syl can't...girl,you'd better start working hard hard hard now ahh..else the next person who's gonna lecture u isn't gonna be only ONE PERSON but WHOLE GANG!

We do this because WE CARE! We "RE...A...LIZE" we have to care:)! Lovee yaaa darl;)

2008-08-08T23:17:00.002+08:00

yuu huuu! Beijing OLYMPICSSS! Lolss...so high! You see,I'm as busy as those beijing oplympics participants could be..i has like sooooo many calls today and msges! For the past few days..ive sent a total of what? 175msges..to who? I also don't know lorr...I asked myself "got so many meeehhh?" Lolsss...Anyway,went YUM CHA AGAIN today before going for badm..brought ah sim and syl along for badm too and ah sim damn cute one laaa...see her doing sportss!! Ahahahaa...ray that lazy bumm,ask him to go he didn't want to but he said he wants to go on diet and I dragged him out for yum cha...hahaha,don't need to thanks me la. Hahaha...actually,I should be grateful that he didn't bomb me coz I was supposed to wake him up at 2.30pm from his nap but I FORGOT! I woke him up only at 3 coz I was studying myself and only when I wanted to get ready to go out I said "OHH MY GODD! RAYYYY!!!" When I msn him

Me: wake up lorr..
Ray: Wait for u to wake me up for exam,die lorr
Me: Weeii..I'm studying chem...sorrryyyyyy. K la,I go get myself ready first..

I can tell u that I've been forgetting alot of minor things lately so pls dont pass me any task. Besides ray's thing,I also forgot to inform ym dad that his friend asked me to pass him msg regarding playing golf in miri TODAY! And when did I tell my dad? TODAY ITSELF..see,I'm soooo efficient? yessss? Hahahhaa...I totally forgot until I felt rather uncomfortable seeing my dad around at home and when my lil bro mentioned something bout golf only then I said "OHHH NO..DEAD MEAT!"

Me: Paaa....I forgot to inform u that uncle kho asked u to confirm with him bout today's golf in miri
Dad: Nahh..u tell me now ONLY?!
Me: aiyaaahhh paaaa...sorrryy ahh..I really forgot..I dont know whats wrong with my memory..jammed already leii
Dad: Haaa? Seeiii lorr...
ME: then howww?
Dad: No how lor...how to how again?

Bro: No laa..dad told uncle kho that he doesn't want to coz dad will be accompanying mummy down to miri this sunday

Me: Ohh yeah harr...cheyyy!! Very good acting horr paaa...Anyway,what did u tell uncle kho when he asked u why didn't u confirm?
Dad: My daughter didn't tell me anything lo..
Me:WHAT?!!!! Sighh...luckily he isn't the sch principal noww..(he was previously)! BAD BAD IMPRESSION!

Omega 3 fish oil also not helping me leei....tsk tsk tskk! GONE CASE man! Sighh..anyway,going off to bed noww..nite niteee

2008-08-08T08:17:00.003+08:00

Back again but for a short post! Yest was the first paper for Qualifying exam..GP! Hard to say how I've done it..hahha! It depends on how the teacher sees it:)!

My essay topic was "THE TRUE SPIRIT OF OLYMPIC HAS BEEN LOST, DO YOU AGREE?" My points are all for this topic because I think that it has indeed been lost. I went from playing for the sake of money to doping,to corruption,to violence and what was once called 'sports" isn't much the same anymore today. Who would deny that isnt it? There's always some truth when we say winning is much more imp than the participation and experience/lesson learnt. Anyway...we'll see how it goes. Paper 2 was I don't know,hard to score? The most UNLUCKY part of yest that I left my spects in the exam hall and I had to strain for the rest of the night. Sighhh...I have friends who are so SWEET....

Me: Min, HAIYERRRR...I LEFT MY SPECTS IN SCH LEEI!
Minna: HHAHAHA..THAT'S FUNNY!
Me: WEEEEIII!!! Tell you also no use one lei,laugh at me tim,say what leh like that?
Minna: Careless also..so "lun zun"
Me: I haven't told my dad leii..

Laterrr.....

Me: Elaine,I left my spects in sch ohh..
Elaine: Why so careless?
Me: Careless? don't know bo..it's my nature.
Elaine: Ohh yeah hor..I forgott!
Me *thinking* :Uhh..very helpful of you!

Theeennn...I went to tell my parents! Hahaha..I said

Me: Paaaaaaaaaaaaaaa,I left my spects in sch lei

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YAY! Phewww~~

Alright,got to go now...MAY TODAY'S BIG EVENT THE OLYMPICS RUN SMOOTHLY!

2008-08-05T20:04:00.005+08:00

HELL IS COMING UP! Cambridge A level exam's schedule is out..and here it is!
My qualifying starts on thurs...ITS A BIG WAR and now this is THE BIGGEST ONE! You see..we study in A level for TWO YEARS...17,520HOURS and it's all shorten into just that number of days and hours and it DETERMINES YOUR FUTURE! Think about it...critical isn't it? Gooddd...

It's time to cut off from whatever possible..be UNCIVILIZED AGAIN! Hahaha...anyway,I guess i shall be shot by miss tor tmrw early in the morn due to some issues,NOT MY ISSUE but Im involved now because the evidence is with miss tor now so tmrw when she passes it back to me,I might get some lecture. The whole story has nothing to do with me INITIALLY but I guess it didn't end it the similar way as well...it's a small matter la really but it was made sorta big for some unknown reason,I was off sch already by then so wait till tmrw and I shall see what's gonna come BUT I'd try my best to explain for my other friend as well as myself! Because what my friend held in her hand this morning during maths class was MY piece of work..that's why I'M IN too. Oh well...no worries laaa my dear syl,I'll try to do some explanation alright.

Okay,signing off now! Bubyeee....

2008-08-05T00:14:00.002+08:00

Look at the time now..I just had my bath! I'm supposed to feel fresher after it but in fact i feel cold and wants to sleep so badly but i've still got some undone which I think I would want to continue tomo. Can I? Somebody give me a sure ans plss... I'm super sleepy now,I didn't get to sleep in the afternoon coz syl called me up to talk to me and so after that we went yum cha! So, me,lou lou,ray,syl,ah sim ended up in the coffee shop! Ah sim was being sucha good girl..haha,she was home already when she saw my message and I persuaded her to come out again and she did,her house is like 20mins away? Hahaha..good girl good girl but I promised her something in return which I HOPE I will be able to do it coz it won't be me doing the decision on that thing promised but ah sim I would love to go with you if possible. Please do understand my "fu sam"(canto)! Hahahhaa...:p

Stayed in the coffee shop for quite a while..my poor syl was damn hungry...hahah! Didn't have anything ever since morning,who can blame her right? So anyway,GENERAL ASSEMBLY in the morning,I wasn't late but was stopped by a teacher on my way to the PS area as I wanted to put my bag..

Teacher: Head that way to the hall now
Me: I would like to place my things first,is that okay?
Teacher: Where? in the classroom?
Me: No no..in the ps area only.
Teacher: Okay:D

Great that the teacher was being polite as well NO TROUBLE CAUSED,YOU'RE HAPPY I'M HAPPY;)..I guess if it was that discipline master he would have been more annoying and I will annoy him too if he didn't allow me to go up. Up the stairs to the ps area takes what? less than 1min and I'm sure that won't make a difference so yeah:D! It was a really long assembly and it was so stuffy in there man,I rather go to class! Theeennnn before I could even start talking..everybody started off with "wahh,jess yeo..ehard u were tipsy/drunk huh?" I was like "errr? What? When? Nooo..I was perfectly fine..see:D" Hahahaha...yeah I was and people were surprised as well coz never in my life had I taken so much alcohol and I always give it to someone else to drink it for me..so it's like A SURPRISEEEEEEEE! Nvm la hor...experience maaa:D

EXAM IS STARTING ON THURSSS....DENG DENG DENGGGG!! Goodluck peeps..I'm going off noww...ciaoooo:)

2008-08-03T23:18:00.002+08:00

MY BRAIN CELLS ARE KILLED! Well,I had such a memorable night yest in zhao ren's party because I took quite a lot of red wine(at least to me,first timer) and was bit tipsy in the end wher eI then became the laughing topic to them! The entire night was about laughters only..and they made a fool out of me,I had no choice! I kept LOSING THE GAME! I had to gulp down 3 cups of full red wine in a GO! It's STRAIGHT MAN! But luckily..I had my darling lou lou to help me out abit or else I think,I'll look and talk in a much more stupid-er way! I tried to act normal but I just can;t..I started talking funnily. I pronounced ORANGE SQUASH AS ORANGE SQUAS and there was this red wine by the name HARDY I called it HARD DISK! Who can blame me right? I don;'t know what I'm talking about leiii....I anyhow repeated whatever people say. :D Is wear to god,the red wine that I had to take was SHIT! It was soooo YUCKIE! Tasted like tiolet water,it's dry and when it goes down the throat it has this burning sensation.

Anyway, when I left,they decided too because the main attention is gone. The FOOL IS GONE! Then sooo, I did a bit of chatting with ray..

Ray: see
Me: See what? go home already?
Ray: No la,still at zhao ren's hse..too drunk,can't drive.
Me: Ehh,syl RICH already or not?

Few sec later..
Me: Ehh..sorry...REACH i meant!
Ray: Haha,you're so drunk..she came back just now..send elaine home first! bah,I want to shower first.
Me: Say still at zhao ren hse..want to shower? Weii,I'm not so blurr lor...
Ray: At home already laaa...lols!

I know I know..I wasn't thinking properly..but I had a really good sleep! Damn shiok! I don't know if the effect is still in me or whatever but kar yee got confused when I replied to her msges.

Kar Yee: Hey,miss tor said which paper she wants to discuss tmrw? What time did u leave zhao ren's hse?
Me: She asked for J05 cambridge P3. 1.30am
Kar Yee : Huh? She wants to discuss P3,1.30am? you still drinking is it? lol
Me: KAR YEEEEE!! Nooo..u asked me which paper miss tor wants so I said P3 J05 and u asked me what time I went home..and the ans is 1.30am. you're so mean to laugh at me..
Kar Yee: Okay okay...sorry! Hahaha...You're too cute! You need some training man..
Me: Okay okay..nxt session again ahh...after exams! Don't kill ym brain cells any further now..THEY'RE MORE PRECIOUS THAN THE WHOLE WIDE WORLD! ;)

We'll see what funny stuff I can come up with again but for the mean time it's time for a STOP AND BREAK from all these parties or whatsoever. FOCUS FOCUSS!! Back to books noww...bubyee!

2008-08-02T18:30:00.003+08:00

Sat morning sucks when assembly is ON! I was caught hiding in the car with a couple of friends:D! Caught by NOT TEACHERS(thank god!) but in stead by the prefects! Then all of us had to get out of the car...SHIT! They were holding something like a book and a pen and I was like "F! IN DEEP SHIT NOW!" I thought they were gonna ask for names but they didn't which was GOOD! They only told us to go for assembly. I purposely wasted time hoping that the assembly would end soon since it had started quite sometime ago and people were all sitting down listening to talk,it would be weird for me to walk in like that thus I didn't intend to go but still those freaking prefect won't let me go. They asked me the second time after seeing me lingering around and I said "yessss yess..i'm gonna gooo!" I took a deep breath and went with some other friends,well,what else besides being in the late line? A few teachers were looking at me with the SURPRISED look coz my dad was already there earlier on and why did I come only now? Well,don't need to know:D! I couldn't say or defend myself when the prefects attack right,I was on the wrong side afterall. You might think I'm in deep shit at the end of the assembly but THANK GOD AGAIN it was a close escape..me and some of my friends escaped to our respective rows while people were busy writing down their names SO MY RECORD STILL REMAINS TRANSPARENT! Wuhuuu....;);)!! Apparently,it's gonna be the last assembly already anyways:D! Haaa....my cute joy ho was damn funny!

Me: Joy! YOUR SOCKSSS!! (she wore blue,supposed to be white). Cover up cover up..I was busy pulling her skirt.
Joy: Nevermind,let them see..it's the last chance they can catch me anyways..if they don't catch now..there will be NO CHANCE
Me: Doinnkk...burst into laughterss!

Sighh..joyyy! Must u be sooo cute and adorable? Hahha.. So basically today was whole lot of fun even during break time we were like BIG KIDS! Joy brought this milo cornflakes and elaine brought honey star..back to when we were little,we used to eat it coz it tastes sweet so anyway guess what we did with it? WE PLAYED SHOOTING! How? our mouth was the goal:D! We stood a distance away and we used those small little cornflakes as balls! Hahahahhaa...me and ah kai basically we the high and crazy ones! My shooting was damn poor man..I threw it at his eyes,face,body but never his mouth! Hahaha...BUT he wasn't good too!! Hahaha...it ended up all on the floor really..DAMN FUNNY!

Physics class was damn HOT! Humid man..shit!Minna and I kept gossiping and mr.nyiau asked "so minna,what is so interesting? want to share?" Minna said "no la sir,gossiping" "Gossip after class lahh..gossips don't come out during exams oneee.." Silence momenttt

Okay..I'm having a party tonight..BBQ party! Zhao ren's bday! I want to EATTTT;) yumm yummm...Syl's picking me at 8ish..still got plenty of time to get ready laa! Slow and steady wins the graceee:D

2008-08-01T23:35:00.002+08:00

It wasn't that she didn't have choices or chances,it was purely because she couldn't open up herself to the outside world. Her windows were tightly locked and she has bottled herself all these while. She has always had opportunities ringing beside her but she let it slipped away without even trying to take a hold of it. She's afraid that everything that is gonna come will remind her of the past which she does not want to face again at all even knowing that it might be a good start for her and not letting her closed it all up to herself again but her being nothing but stubborn chose to lead the life that she has been leading. She certainly doesn't find it really that comfortable because she knows it clear that she might be missing something good but somehow her heart is just reluctant to take any action instead she drove it away herself. That's because she didn't like the other party? The other party has not touched or moved her at all? The questions left unanswered. Now that she has revealed the untold,is she ready to start a new chapter or has she just placed the book down but still left it unclosed?

HAHAHA! Nice thoughts? I'm boredd..just finished doing maths! Let's see,I went yum cha today with ray,gav,ah sim,lou lou,syl,zhao ren! Well,ray suddenly showed up in my house which gave me a big shock..

Ray: Let's go let's go..yum cha,lou lou ask me to pick u up!
Me: Looking blurr..Huh? What? Now? Buttt...
Ray: Don't buttt liaw laa...change noww! I wait for u in the car...
Me: buttt..I wanna play badm already lei at 5
Ray: Play waht la,no need to play..let's gooo...CHANGEE!!
Me: Okay okayyy...but i'm asking gav some maths prob

Ray happily typing while I went to change,when I got out of the bathroom he said okay...let's move! got to pick gav now! I was like lolsss...that's fast! Whatever,I rushed lar..packed my badm stuff and zoomedd!! I was hungry but didn't quite felt like eating,had a slice of bread and tea only. I changed my badm time from 5 to 5.30 coz I certainly can't make it at 5 since I was still in town. So we left the shop around 5 and what really happened was ah sim and lou lou were trying to STALK on someone so we drove around town for like so longggg! Sighh..these two "CHILDREN!" I ended up late for badm lor..what to say leeii? My driver like that..hahah! Had really good games though..and it's sad to say that the no of people is so much lesser. There was only 6 of us there man! SO SADDD! Anyway,I came home..didn't have dinner as well coz I don't feel hungry,don't ask me why coz I cant ans you too.

NOOO! ASSEMBLY TMRWWW! ARGHHH! Sieenn ahh..please RAINNNNN! Rain in the afternoon better...cooler during phy class,can pay better attn? Hahhaha..So yup,we'll see if ray's sixth sense is accurate. Ciaooo noww...

2008-07-31T19:48:00.003+08:00

I MAKE A GOOD AND SMART CRIMINAL! Huhuh..Just now I used my youngest bro's account to talk to minna(my friend). She asked if I was tong or jess. Of course I replied saying I'm tong since im using that account and I added in "my sis is watching tv outside". She then replied "ohh,no wonder she didn't reply me on msn." Well,the smart part was that I said I was outside watching tv instead of saying in my room bcoz I thought that she might ask why I didn't reply her on msn. Hahahaa...SMART?! You might think it's nothing but LAME but that's how far boredom can bring you:).

Ahahahhaa...MR.NYIAUU!! He is one hilarious MAN! Apparently,he sang WE WILL WE WILL ROCK YOU in SET 1 PHYSICS class!! We're currently learning something about frequency and so he brought in RADIO! AM and FM to tell us the difference. If only he will remain as FUNNY as he iss...then good lorrr:D

This is the kind of straightener that people normally see in saloon and my eldest bro got it for ONLY 7POUNDS from UK which is around sin dollars S$20+! CHEAP CHEAP CHEAP! My task now is to tell koko that I need it:)! Huhuh..I've been using it for few days already and it's working pretty well...KOOOOOOO...YOU'RE VERY NICE ONE HORRRR:)!

Me: Kooo!! I want thiss! Why did u buy this?
Ko: Why? I thought u have one urself? Cannot buy here meh?
Me: I have but not as good lor..why did u buy?
Ko: Ohh,I went to the saloon to get my gel and the person offered me with a gel..
Me: Ohh,that means u don't need it la..I want ohh
Ko: Don't want laaa..You check it out in town if they do sell it.
Me: Okay..so u gonna pay for it ahh,if I find it..

Few secs later...

Me: don't want laaa...I want this onee.

Haaa...it's with me for as long as he's here in brunei. We'll see how it goes again.

Mum: Did Koko say he's gonan give it to u?
Me: He diddddd...*smiling cunningly* No laa..he didn't say he's gonna give it to me but he let me use it for the time being. Mum,u ask koko to give it to me lorr..he doesn't use it anyway,okay?:D

It's really nicee...GIVE MEE LAA...GIVE ME LAAA..PLEASEEEEE! Hehehehe..

I had the shortest maths class in HISTORY! (2years i meant!) From 12.30 to 1.30pm only worr coz there's this AUSTRALIAN MATH GOING ON so miss tor had to leave:D! congrats anyway,we've finished the syllabuss..wootss! Time to get to work soon,so let's stop right here..ciaooo

2008-07-30T18:54:00.002+08:00

PUBLIC HOL AND I BAKED TODAAAYY! Haaa..it was some last min plan where I happen to see and flip thru the recipe book pages..hah! Anyway..MARBLE BUTTER CAKE! It turned out to be pretty alright though it didn't look convincing:(! Looks can be DECEIVING! Seee...proven:)!

Anyway,yest I slept at 3am after finishing maths and stayed up to chit chat for a bit and also sent some stuff to lou lou but unfortunately it failed due to error in transfer! Tooooottt his MSN! Woke up rather late this morning,9.18am! Went out for breakfast with family and after that I came home to revise physics. Around 2.30,syl and I went to buy some ingredients for the cake and who knew that my plain flour was expired,I didn't knowww at first..the first time I went out,I onyl bought what I didn't have which were margarine and caster sugar but when I was weighing my plain flour I thought it looked weird and there you go EXPIRED! I haven been baking for soooooooooooo longgggggggggggg leeeiiii. I think I'll do it more often after exams or whatsoever laaa...it's FUN! I did it alone,syl helped to eat,at the end of the day when your master piece turned out to be fine you just feel PROUD AND CONTENTED! ;)

I guess tonight,I'll do the remaining homeworks and also errrmmm cont reading my chem and SLEEP early! Feel rather sleepy already..sooo let's call it A DAY;)

2008-07-30T00:22:00.002+08:00

OHH GODD!! Those people made myyy DAYYY!! I couldn't stopped laughing..Goddd!! Well, syl and I went to lou lou's hse for steamboat dinner and her friends are NOTHING BUT FUN! AH SIM especially of course was the joke of the night..haha! She and her *ahem* was the entertainer seriously..ohhh...I feel so exhausted now from laughing.

Went for lunch with lou lou,ah sim and syl as well this afternoon since I was home alone. In a way I'm coz my parents went to bandar,bro working..youngest bro certainly can;t take care of me instead it should be the other way round. So yuuupp..had SUSHI again but didnt eat much coz laughing gas filled my stomach..with lou lou and ah sim around,that's always the case!

While I was in lou lou's hse just now, I received a call from PIZZA HUT! I was like "what? who is this?" The person kept asking me for direction to my house coz my bro has some friends coming over and I couldn't quite understand that person on the phone,i'm pretty sure he couldn't too so later on he passed to his manager and everything was SETTLED! Should have passed earlier on lorrr..I was wondering which smart ass gave my number to them but actually they have it saved coz I used my phone to call them up the last time..soo yeeaaa:D

Tonight was PURE FUN man! Huhuhuhh...soo much laughter,haven really laughed like that in AGES! I jsut felt soooooooooooooooooooooooooo FREEEEE!! HIGHHH...SUGAR HIGHH:). Alright,enough with all that..time to get back to work..it's now 12.30AM! Goodmorning peepssss

2008-07-28T13:55:00.002+08:00

TODAY is just plain SHIT! I woke up too late because my alarm didn't ring and nobody woke me up. I woke up around 7.30 and when my dad came back from sending my lil bro to sch knowing that I wasn't ready yet he just left without me. I know that he cant be late since he has to show good example as a senior headmaster so yes HE LEFT! I tried to be AS FAST AS I POSSIBLY COULD! I got yelled at by mom and it annoyed the hell out of me and during that situation when I'm rushing and everything in me isn't ready yet I have something beside my ears yelling thru' out..I couldn't help but to shout back

Mom : "DAD LEFT ALREADY! I DON'T CARE,I'M NOT SENDING U TO SCH,I HAVE TO SEND UR BRO AND TO WORK..I DON'T HAVE SO MUCH TIME,YOU ALWAYS WASTE MY TIME"

Me: MY ALARM DIDN'T RING!! AND NOBODY WOKE ME UP!

Mum: YOU ALWAYS WANT PEOPLE TO WAKE U UPPP! YOU CANNOT WAKE UP URSELF?!

Me: WTH?! YOU NEVER WOKE ME UP,I NORMALLY WAKE UP MYSELF BUT TODAY MY ALARM JUST DIDN;'T RING,WHAT CAN I DO? IF U CAN'T SEND ME THEN JUST GET THE HELL OUT OF HERE AND LEAVE! DON'T ANNOY ME,I'M TRYING TO BE AS FAST AS I POSSIBLY COULD ALREADY AND WITH YOU CONTINUE YELLING AT ME I CAN'T TURN BACK THE TIME FOR YOU EITHER! YOU EITHER LEAVE ME ALONE OR WAIT FOR JUST A BIT!

Goddd..I swear I hate it when I'm trying to get things done and someone who ISN'T HELPING annoys meee!! I didn't have the intention to be rude...

So anyway,as I thought that everything is fine since I'm already in sch..another bloody issue came up! That is..I left my CHEM HOMEWORK PAPER AT HOME! I paniced of course bcoz I have to hand it in today. Luckily it's my private study time and thank goodness that Richard was there and he;'s soooo NICE to send me home to take it. If not,I'm gonna get scolding from ROLAND.

Who could be more FUCKED UP than I'm and what else could be more FUCKED UP than waking up from the WRONG SIDE OF BED! What a MONDAY!

Anywayyy....THANKSSS RICHARDDD:)! Much appreciateddd;)

2008-07-27T16:20:00.005+08:00

I didn't go to MIRI becauseee...I COULDN'T WAKE UP! Partly also because I thought it's better for me to stay home and get some work done..anyway,it wasn't a bad decision after all. My parents came back with lotsa stuff,dad bought alot of junk food! Hahhaa...he's like "there you gooo...there you gooo.." Talking bout my dad...yest right after phy class I was damn hungry,I suddenly felt liek eating american breakfast(during tea time) so I asked my dad if he knows how to cook scramble eggs and he said "OF COURSE..." and went on talking about the procedures. After he finished his lines I ended with "okay great,I'm very hungry..later you cook for me ahh" Guess what did I get in return? "Ohh cannnnn but I'm playing golf soon! You just follow what I've said" Dad replied. I went speechless totally and gave the DOINK expression. "I know how to do it actually,I'm just lazy..I only want to eat after I finish bathing." I said. Anyway,my maid did it for me in the end..hehehehhe:D!

These brighten up my day..Geeee....(mini TVB's JAcky Zai)

Haaaa....SOOO CUTEEE..Muaccckkss

My cutee cute darlinggg:D!

Today is I MISS YOU day? How come I have people saying it to me one after another? Anyway....

I MISS YOU
YOU MISS ME
WE'RE HAPPY FAMILY...

Lolsss...:D

2008-07-26T19:22:00.002+08:00

Today is perhaps the BEST physics afternoon class ever!! For some reason, MR.NYIAU(tutor) WAS SORTA ON SUGAR HIGH! Hahahha... He was funny almost thru' out the lesson and I guess it's the weather that made him and us so attentive and energetic! It's super cooling today and I didn't see the SUN at all for the entire day,the sky was just plain grey and dull. Minna and I presented our design questions answers today and I felt great,at least I don't have to worry when he;s gonna pull me out coz I've volunteered:). Mr,Nyiau told us a story about a BIRD today which I thought was rather good. Here goes..

Once upon a time there was this two BRUNEIAN who thinks that they're very smart and one day they heard that there is one JAPANESE man in Japan who is intelligent and lived up the mountain. So,these two bruneian man decided to fly over to japan to look for this man. While they were climbing up the mountain,the two of them were discussing about what should they ask this intelligent Japanese old man. So,one of them caught a small BIRD, he grabbed it with one of his hand and asked the Japanese man "Is this bird that I'm holding alive or dead?" The intelligent Japanese old man answered him "If I say it's dead,you would most probably just give it a twist at the head and let it die. Similarly,If I say it's alive,you would just let it go."

Can you more or less guess what's the moral of the story about? It's about that whatever you do,it's YOUR DECISION! IT'S YOUR LIFE,YOU DECIDE HOW YOU WANT TO LIVE IT.

My mood from the moment I realized that my CHEM P5 DESIGN questions are missing was just like the weather today. Actually,I was afraid more than unhappy/moody coz it means I need to ask MR.ROLAND for another sheet of those questions. I was scared of course because he might just yell at my face immediately hearing that my reason behind is I'VE LOST IT:)! Butttt....thank goodness he didn't in fact he LAUGHED at me..I was like "A Ha Ha Ha...let's laugh too" He printed another piece of work for me and I collected right after maths class only. Goddd..thankkk youuu!

So I guess that's about it in sch today,for the rest of the night it's gonna be study only I supposed coz tmrw I won't down to miri so yeah. Alright,time for dinner..ciaoooo!

MY INTERNET CONNECTION SUCCCKKSSS.....AGAIN!!!! I keep getting DC-ed AGAINNN!! ARghhh..it's sooo annoyinngg..and there seemed to be a problem with my C box?

2008-07-26T00:04:00.003+08:00

Well,Today is rather happening/interesting! Hahaha...syl and I went to tapau around ove bucks of sushi because Cheryl,Jennifer,Diana(cheryl's cousin),Syl,Amy came over to my place to eat sushi..whatever we bought from the escapade was half price,not all but most of them and we ordered some from the menu so it ended up to be around 50+. So anyway,we laughed like maddd mann...Jennifer was damn funny..she's called "ah sim"(canto) Hahahhaa...she's super funny man! They came to my house while I was still in escapade waiting for the food to be ready and guess what....THEY LEFT OUT SOME OF OUR SUSHI! WE'VE PAIDDDD!! :(! We were thinking to go back and take but they closed already:(! Sobbbb.....

Ah sim and diana left around 3ish to seria JUST to pluck their eyebrow..cheryl stayed behind and the poor her waited for almost 2hrs before they came to pick her up..hahhaa! Apparently,they were having tea in seria's universal cafe because the salon girl isn't available...hahahha! My poor darling cheryl..she was sooo FULL AND SLEEPY! Right after all of them left,I got myself ready for badminton..It was just simply quiet in the hall coz most are on summer hols...so we have only about a handful of people. It's gonna be even worse when anthony leaves for UK to further his studies! the number of people is INVERSELY PROPORTIONAL TO THE LENGTH OF TIME! It's supposed to increase in number isn't it..but sadly it's getting LESSER AND LESSER!

I'm helping cheryl to find the themesong of the series SPEECH OF SILENCE! Anybody who happens to know where I can download please do let me know. I'd better get going now..there'll be assembly tmrw and I cannot be late! Daymm...sat! Class ends at 3.30! PFFFT!

2008-07-25T00:07:00.002+08:00

Annnddd babbyyy..everytime you touch mee..I become a herooo..I'll make you safe no matter where you areee!1 I'm in loveeeeee..........Hahahha...no laaa! Anyway,first of all I would like to announce that I PERSONALLY have a new maid called MARIA SOPHIA RAY! He is my ALL TIME maid...hahhahaha!!! So anyway..thanks alot for helping me photocopy the formula sheet..much appreciated;). Okay so thurs is always and has always been a rather long day for me as class ends only at 3pm! AGAINNNNNNN....miss tor found a sweet wrapper on the floor and she said "sigh...jess,is this yours again?" But before she could finish her sentence I said "nopee..it's not mine! I didn't eat this sweet,you can see my sweet right here on the table..it has no wrapper..it's in a small container..I'm sure its the junior's ones!" Hahaha...she ended with "these terrible juniors..."

Okay...awhile later she came to check my work coz she saw me happily sitting down doing nothing but looking around,she found something to comment on about my work that is SKIPPING TOO MANY STEPS AND GOING DIRECTLY TO THE ANS! The data was supposed to be read from a table in the formula sheet and the additions of the figures are done mentally so I did not write the steps down THEREFORE I got SHOT AT by her GUN(MOUTH)! But its alright...I tried not to skip them in my hmewrk already.

Sul,cheryl and jennifer went to fratini at 2! Well,we decided to go tmrw at around 11.30 after the two GORGEOUS(cheryl and jen) finish their morning classes but too bad the 50% promo ends today and "FORTUNATELY" my class ends at 3 so I couldn't join them. The everrrrrrrrrrrrr SOOOOOOO NICEEEEEE syl messaged me saying "WE'RE AT FRAT NOW..YUMMY YUMMY!" While I was waiting for miss tor to proceed I replied saying "I'm not at TOR'S CAFE! There is also alot of YUMMY FOOD here,can be taken home as HOMEWORKS somemore." Bloody syl,tempt me! I had it 3times in a week already so I'm TOTALLY FINE! HMPH...!

Tonight was a rather happening night...I went out for dinner and then headed to the NIGHT MARKET which was BORRRINNNGGGGG...too little stores compared to previous years and nothing much to look around. It more like going for a walk to digest whatever I've eaten. Lolss...I bumped into some of my juniors and also my ex classmates though.

Besides that I guess there's almost about today..I PLAYED BADMINTON! Hahaaa.....I guess my badminton sessions now would be thurs,fri,sat perhaps. Dammn itt..soo littleee!

Ohh yesss...Just before I leave....QUALIFYING STARTS ON THE 7TH OF AUG! Damn itt man..I've not seen the timetable yet..I would have to on sat! SHITTTT!! It's SOONNNNN!! I have 16papers in total to sit for...GOD,WOULD YOU PLEASE PLEASE BE THERE FOR ME TO GUIDE ME THRU' WHATEVER THAT IS GOING TO COME MY WAY. BLESS ME,AMEN:)

2008-07-23T20:16:00.004+08:00

Lo ha! Here I'm again..let's do a short and quick review on yest..I was too tired/lazy or whatever it was to post and AGAIN yest morn something really stupid happened. While I was taking my shower before going to sch,I happily squeezed some of my LOREAL HAIR SHAMPOO instead of body shampoo. Lolsss!! I normally do not wash my hair in the morning coz it takes up quite alot of time and NO WAY will I sacrifice my sleeping time for that:)..Actually I did a rally short post but for some reason it had an error so I didn't bother and just close the page. Alright,as said previously I'll post up some pics of the CONVERSE SHOESS!! Here it is..it just looked great..I LOVE IT MYSELF so SYL YOU BETTER LOVE IT TOO! Take EXTRA EXTRA good care of it alright..you know it didn't cost little:)

It's nth but CONVERSEEEE babyy

GREEN+PINK+WHITE=I WANT ONE TOO!

Okay.....still I want to say TAKE GOOD CARE OF IT! Hahaha..Syl said "it's too exp that she doesn't dare to wear,it's still in hte box!" Well,it's good that u appreciate and love it but its no point keeping it in the box and till it turns yellow and throw in the bin! It BREAKS MY HEART EVEEENN MOREEE!! Or there's another solution to it...you can let me wear it a couple of times first:D! Huhuhuh...

ssoo YESSS!! Maths hmewrk all done! thank god..I seriously have maths hmewrk phobia too man! It's way too mcuh..always overload and when physics come along..It's DOOM DAY! Anyway,today is bit better as there isn't any homework but it's still not a REST DAY,there are lotsa more waiting to be done so I got to get going nowww.

Ciaooo peepss..

2008-07-21T22:34:00.002+08:00

I just came back from a real great dinner with SYL! It's her BIRTHDAY TODAY! Happy birthday darlinggg...though you're always SOOOOOOOOO MEAN to mee but I still love you. I'm just soo nice,yesss? Hhehehe...anyway,we celebrated her bday together with ray,gav,ker yee,cheryl and miss tan. It was a simple yet funny and we saw tiong and a group of other friends there too. We talked about almost everything under the sun..hahaha! Some "dirty" topicsss as well..damn this gav! He could think of such things...bringing in physics into that topic! Lolsss....So anyway, I didn't manage to take a pic of all the food we ordered which is SAD! I FORGOTTT baaa..but I did manage to snap a few pics of the CONVERSE SHOES we bought for syl..it's REALLY NICE! I love it and thought of getting it for myself too:)

The whole dinner lasted for like 3hrs? I had fish and chips which was hmmm..alright I would say. I wasn't really hungry. Syl had grileld seafood platter,cheryl,miss tan and gav had mixed grill,ray had seafood pasta and kar yee had salmon or chicken cheese baked rice. We actually planned to go to the night market which after dinner but we stayed to chit chat for too long so yeah it was called off. I might be going on thurs night though so yuupp..

Ohh...did i mention that on sat I woke up at 8.18AM? Hey...LOOK AT THE TIMEE! Hahaha..I was like.."wuuu,818! Perfect figure huh?" Hahahha..lols! Obssessed..but yessss:) JESSICA HSUANNNNN'S NUMBERRR! Heee....

Alright,enough of all the fun..wait for the converse pics to be uploaded and I shall get to work now before it's too late. I'm getting sleepy though because I was woken up by numerous calls this afternoon while I was trying to take my nap. Anyway....nite:)

2008-07-20T20:21:00.002+08:00

Burrrppp~~~ ! I just had ITALIAN DINNER! I went to FRATINI AGAIN!! Was supposed to go for sushi but I ended up in fratini because I was told it's family dinner and reservations has been made sooo.....SORRRYYYYY:(!

Alright,let's do a quick review of what happened today...

1)Studied in the morning
2) Instant noodles for lunch
3) Studied in the afternoon again
4)watch tv in the evening(Healing souls)
5)Went to frat for dinner and shopping
6)Here i'm blogging...

AND

ANDDDD

ANDDDDDD

7)RELAX,REST,SLEEP EARLY:)! Prep myself for tmrw's test..huhuhu.

So please test paper...be easy on meee and PLEASE DO NOT TORTURE MEE...PLEASEEEE...MERCY MERCYYY;)

Did I mention I had the healthiest tea break ever today? Hahha..I actualyl had cereal with raisins and banana..well,it sounded like breakfast I know. So anyway,I told jie about it coz errr I told her I'm only having instant noodles at home since nobody is around and we ended up with this convo..

Jie: What? How could they leave u all alone?
Me: I'm having instant noodles only..
Jie: Are they not afraid of you burning the house down the ground? Do u know how to boil water? Take a pot,put some water inside and switch on the fire
Me:WOW!! I'M ACTUALLY VERY SURPRISED THAT YOU KNOW!

Hahaha..then she never replied...I'm just absolutely fantastico;) Kekeke

Alright,signing out...ciao peeps!

2008-07-19T21:03:00.005+08:00

This is how INTERESTING PHYSICS IS!

Scratch your head for solutions...
Think harder..
Fall sleep and DREAM
Wake up with NO ANSWERSJUST GO TO BED! Dream better..HAHAHA!(opps..lights not off)

Physics is just too interesting in a way that you got to fall asleep and dream about it..=)! That's the BEAUTY of it;)

1st: Search for solution
2nd: Think harder
3rd: Fall sleep and dream
4th: Wake up with no answer
5th: GO TO BED!

These are meant to be for the fun...DO NOT LEARN! The right attitude is...search EVERYWHERE,EVERYPLACE POSSIBLE!

30% reading--->60% solving--->10% ask

THE CYCLE REPEATS ITSELF!

2008-07-19T13:37:00.007+08:00

RAYYY RAYYY RAYYYY AND RAYYYY!!! I've been waiting for this guy to upload some of the pics I snapped using his phone so that I can share it here but HE IS NO WHERE TO BE SEEN! Well,he was SUPPOSED to upload it for me YESTERDAY but this what happened.

Me: You didn't send the pics to my mail,I want to blog tonight la.
Ray: Didn't i tell you i'm in bandar?
Me: Ya! You didn't
Ray: Didn't I say i'm watching batman?
Me: You didn't as well. Nothing of that sort,you only said YES when I told you to send me the pics
Ray: All I can say is that you weren't paying attn to what I said. So hurt....end of conversation. I need to RECONSIDER everything again.
Me: HA HA HA HA....I'm rolling on the floor now coz ur joke is too super extremely overly absolutely definitely undoubtedly FUNNY!

What is there to RECONSIDER when nothing has ever been CONSIDERED? Hahahha...Actually, I know he's up in bandar for batman I purposely answered him that way...hehehhe;) but I thought he's gonna at least send it to me email ma:(! Sighh... There's no need to consider anything anymore la...ALL MARKS CUT OFF! CHANCE-LESS! Hhahahhaa:p

So anyway...back to whatever happened yest. We went to FRATINI for lunch...coz it they had 50% of promo..we went around 2ish with my stomach growling loudly coz I only had one piece of bread in the morning. We meet CHERYL(lou lou) AND JENNIFER(ah sim)! We ordered 3kinds of pasta and one pizza...DAMN GOOD! We were stunned by the bill...NOT BECAUSE IT WAS TOO PRICEY but because it was TOO CHEAP and WHY? Cheryl footed our BILL! The bill came showing $8.25 and we all were like HUH? FOR 3 PASTAS AND ONE PIZZA?! Only then we were told that's the price of the pizza after 50%..the rest were paid by cheryl coz she left early! Aww....THANKSS DARLING;)! We owe u one....;)

Right after frat,I accompanied ray to supermarket coz he needed to buy some vege and I came up with a brilliant idea(as always) to go to DQ! Hahahha...on the way we went to pick syl up and my LIL BOYFRIEND OSCAR KO! Aww...he's soo cute! I do have a couple of pics here in my MSN but I can't find it anywhere in any folders..I don't know if its possible to extract from MSN..I can only have it as my display pic there.

Meanwhile..let's take a look at this messy table...this is how it looks like when things are not going quite right..

Ahhhh~~` My boyfriendd!=) During his younger days;)
Oscar ko! NOW=)=)AWFUL LOOKING OREO CHEZCAKE(coz of Syl..)

Looking good(melting tho:p) GREEN TEA!

And actually..I'm quite sick of it already..hah! Alright...post EDITED! I'll be absent from ah kai's party tonight=(! Phy UNDONE! Damn it..

2008-07-17T21:55:00.006+08:00

Have u ever thought about what FAMILY really means and why is this word even invented? Alright, FAMILY means Father And Mother I Love You! It's amazing isn't it? Do you realize how we tend to take our own family members or people we love most for granted and instead we treat outsiders better/far better at times? We ASSUME that it's perfectly alright to treat them that way because they UNDERSTAND us and WILL NOT BLAME US but have we ever thought how sometimes our action can cause a DEEP WOUND and SCAR left in the heart for the rest of their lives? It's far too late to regret when you've lost that someone. There isn't any point/use to do whatever you possibly could to replace the loss because the fact is that THEY'RE GONE! You might now question,why is this girl so emo? Hahaha...coz I just came back from a FAMILY dinner? Hahaha...no! It's because I just finished reading an email of this sort and it suddenly hit me hard on the head and start to recall about all the observations I've made on people around me. There are some who puts family way before anything else in the world,basically,their family means the world to them but there are some who DOESN'T GIVE A DAMN about their own family,they're basically living in their own world which consists of NOTHING but themselves. You could clearly see the difference between these two people..one being really SELF CENTERED/ANTISOCIAL and the other one normally cares about what's going on with his/her surrounding. You should by now know what kind of person you are and IF you happen to fall into the ANTISOCIAL(YOUR-PROBLEM-IS-NON-OF-MY-BUSINESS) it's time for u to wake up because the world does not revolve only around you. Care for others,it does no harm.

Okay,enough of being sooooooooo emotional...family dinner in JOLENE just now was really great. We had 5 great dishes...STEAM FISH,VEGE,3KINDS OF PRWAN(SALAD PRAWN,BUTTER MILK AND INDONESIAN STYLE PRAWN) and lastly we have err CLAYPOT ONION CHICKEN:)! I didn't over eat this time,I shared a bowl of rice with mummy:) which in the end makes me feel just nice! Sooo...for today! Class ended bit earlier coz miss tor heerself couldn't take it anymore and me sitting right in front,I was on the verge of falling asleep and miss tor said "Jess,faint already ahh..okay la okay la..after this question we go home..I'm also exhausted already" Hahaha...I was really really sleepy! NO JOKE! I must sleep early every wednesday night because thurs is a very long day. Sat is too...:(!

Today's friendly match with CHMS was alright,I went for the fun. Wont my matches and rushed home because dinner was at 7.30pm! I needed to bathe and blow my hair..girls normally take a long time so understandable laa horr..I don't know who is the champ overall..I haven't gotten any news yet..apparently it was 3win 3 loss and 2 draws..unless they play the draw games then its a NO WIN NO LOSE!

I guess that's a bout it...exercised,had great dinner and now I'm off to work! Got lots to do..ciaoo

2008-07-16T23:45:00.003+08:00

TODAY isss....ANOTHER BLURR DAY! After one day of public hol,it certainly DID NOT FEEL GREAT and I felt really tired that I got my timetable mixed up. I forgot that after recess I'm supposed to be in GP class,I thought I'm having my private study,that was my thoughts in phy class until when I was outside and xin wanted to go to the canteen I told her time was too short because we can't be late for GP class. See,i'm contradicting there..in my mind it was PS after recess but my mouth speaks another. LOLS! WHAT ON EARTH IS WRONG?! So anyway,entered GP class and teacher wasn't it but sadly she left some classwork for us which UNFORTUNATELY has to be handed in at the end of the period=(!

The upcoming days will be rather happening...badminton friendly tmrw,dinner at night. Then it will be a long weekend since his majesty will be coming down to kb on sat therefore another sch day off and I'll be having family gathering in bandar I LOTUS restaurant(YUMMM). It's also ah kai's birthday on sat but obviously I won't be there. SORRY FRIEND! With all that on the list,I'm now trying to finish phy before fri or latest by fri so I still have sometime left to do the reading. I did P3 today and it was another proof of me being blurr. The answer was already sorta right in front of me I just needed to factorise it abit but I thought I was all wrong so I interrupted elaine (MISS TOP OF THE WORLD),asking her to try that question when she's busy with her homeworks and in the end I've actually gotten the ans in the very beginning. Hahaha..I'm truly sorry,I didn't mean to add anymore stress to you but I can be stupidly blurr at times. Surprisingly,elaine said "I don't blame you" Aww...sucha sweetheart..hahaha;)

Actually,I'm feeling really worn out/exhausted now. I've been working eversince 5pm in the evening non stop. Had 15mins break for dinner only. OH YEAH...talking bout dinner! My bro cooked pasta for himself because he didn't like the dishes served during dinner. I went into the kitchen while he was cooking saying it LOUD AND CLEAR that I wanna try too and so of course I was waiting patiently,perhaps too patiently that when my youngest bro came into my room he said "wahh,koko's pasta was really good" Immediately I exclaimed "REALLY?! okay..i'm going to try now..." Before I even reached my door my youngest bro said "haa? finish already lor.."(with that kind of tone) I was like WHAT?! WHY NOBODY CALLED ME?! I SAID I WANTED TO TRY MA! My youngest bro said "WE DID! WE CALLED U FEW TIMES JIEEEE JIEEE but you didn't come out!" OF COURSE I DIDN'T BECAUSE I DIDN'T EVEN HEAR A SINGLE THING! My door is closed and the kitchen is NOT OPPOSITE my room. Sighh...soo saddd lorr! These two bros..SOOOO "KIND AND SWEET!" But anyway..

NO PASTA, MESSY TIMETABLE, OVERLOOKED ANSWER! Ohh well...let's call it a day:(

Gdnite...*crying*

2008-07-15T19:53:00.002+08:00

Today isn't any ordinary day because it's the day HIS MAJESTY THE SULTAN came to this world and IT'S A PUBLIC HOLIDAY for us=)! Lols...so anyway,I woke up at around 8am this morning and starting working around 9am. I tried to finish off the maths hmewrk but ST1's exercise was kinda tough so I need to check with Elaine tmrw. Alright,so I finished at 11.30 ish and something really toot happened. I was holding my cup of coffee while walking out of my room and of course my intention was to bring it to the kitchen but guess where I brought it to? THE BATHROOM?! When I placed the cup down I was thinking why is there mirror in the kitchen and why are my face products here? Then the next sec I was like "ohh god,What the hell jess?" My dad saw me and said "haha,you studied too much." Ohh well...that's how blurr I can be sometimes,please bear with me. I'm sure when jie sees me at that moment she's gonna go "haiyoorrr.....dieee lorr..." with her palm on her forehead.

I had quite a good lunch this afternoon,went for SUSHI! AND I WAS EXPECTING TO HAVE PEOPLE TO PLAY BADMINTON WITH TODAY butttt....................................=(! I have a friendly match coming up and I NEED TO PRACTICE abit at least...anybody? volunteer? Oh yeah..I had a rather funny convo with syl this afternoon..

Sylvia: I'm pregnant
Me: Keep eating?
Sylvia: didn't come for 2 months liao
Me: bohh..who's baby? You remember which guy you did it with that night or not? I told you already..don't simply do anything.
Sylvia: which night also forget liao,how to remember the guy?
Me: In's chetz house ba..
Sylvia: Wahaha..too many of them..don't know whose one..wahaha
Me: Hahaha..shit,soooo agressive sia u
Sylvia: Walau..they're all computer freaks lei..most of them took computer related course
Me:don't change topic! Recall who you did it with,I don't mind being an aunty at this age..hah!
Sylvia: Okey lorr...continue the topic you want then..
Me: you are a bio student you know when's best to do it and think you WILL NOT get preg but sometimes u just don't know how your body functions. so it's TA DAHH...PREG! BY ACCIDENT!

Hahahaha...well,there's somemore to it which I don't think is too nice to share:)!

So I shall end this post with...HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO HIS MAJESTY THE SULTAN DAN YANG DI PERTUAN NEGARA BRUNEI DARUSSALAM:)

ANDDD.........

ANDDDDDDDDDDDDD.............

ANDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD................

GOD,THANK YOU FOR BLESSING MY FRIEND. THANK YOU GOD:)

2008-07-14T20:50:00.003+08:00

STEAMBOAT NIGHT=)! There's sooooooooooooo much variety of food on the table and I'm stuffed like anything now. Drank alot of soup...and it's so noisy out there coz some of my bro's friends are around. I wanted to snap a few pics of the entire thing but I realized that I do not have the cable and thus couldn't upload to the computer.

Although that people are enjoying out there I still have to study..got like whole lot of hmewrkss! Oh yeah,I approached mr.nyiau to ask him about one of the phy ques that I couldn't solve but see no mistake in my working. I asked gavin to help me out yest and he got the same thing..well,the answer behind the book WAS WRONG! God...I went mad yest because I see no FREAKING MISTAKE but I couldn't get the answer..drove me mad seriously! I'm fine now...hahaha;)!

Did GP presentation today and it was good..short,fast and appropriate:) and class ended 15mins earlier! Aiyah,dont know what else to write..all I know now is i OVERATE and I feel like puking!

Here's something jie bought for mee...
Thank you darlinggg:)

2008-07-13T20:11:00.002+08:00

Minna : Why did you add the when to get married application in facebook? So despo to get married meh?

Me: No laa...I thought it's quite interesting so I took the test lor..marry marry marry who sin tak ga? From NO BOYFRIEND TO BEING A WIFE TO SOMEONE?! You think sublimation meh? (chemistry term..hahhaa,it means from solid to gas...skipped liquid state).

So anyway,today was quite a physics day really..hap plenty of questions to do! Tonight will be chem and some phy remaining...ohh god! PHY CHEM PHY = PSYCHO!

One of my yiyi is here...she cooked us dinner..yummyy!! And soo tonight I have someone to sleep with me...I hope she doesn't snore:) but IF it's me snoring it will be PERFECTLY fine la har...kekeke

Today isn't a very healthy day coz NO BADMINTON:(! Sobb...anddd....tracy,cher and aunty jenny..all three outstation! wah lau..these ppl..I'm here suffering they're elsewhere enjoying! UNFAIR UNFAIR...I DECLARE UNFAIRNESS! BUT ANYWAY...tmrw might me some interesting day because STEAMBOAT at night since tues is HIS MAJESTY THE SULTAN'S BIRTHDAY(public hol) and another hol on SAT! Wee heeee? Yesss....WOHOOOO!!

Oh yeah not forgetting,I watched Healing souls on tv and i'm glad to say that the spark ebtween JESSICA AND FRANCIS is kinda beginning so I must keep track with it everyweekend now:)! They look good together....really! Compatible:)

I think that's about it? Ciaoooo...

2008-07-13T12:54:00.011+08:00

Only mags that I have,THANKS TO SPORE FANS:)

Spot the SIGNATURE!

"Served upside down or it's FREE!"

YUM YUM! It might not look
as good as said but it's real GOOD STUFF!

DQ Green tea!

* Wuu..what are they doing?*

Darl chel "Mmmm..yum"

SweetheartS!

The MEN:)

I randomly took some pics of my DQ GREEN TEA ICE CREAM with my quickcam and I found out that there are some nice pics of my SWEETHEARTS in the quickcam folder and so here they're uploaded and shared:)

2008-07-12T13:44:00.002+08:00

HAPPY TODAY!

Firstly,PHY TEST IS POSTPONED TO NEXT NEXT MON! God thank you....THANKKK YOUUU!! Next thing is,I'm gonna have DQ GREEN TEA AGAIN!! Weeeheee..Happy happyyy....;)! Can I be any happier?

Something rather "interesting" happened in chem lab today. A girl who belongs to another chem set walked into our class after the bell rang coz she say some of us leaving already so she just walked in and placed her bag but my teacher is still inside collecting our assignments therefore the girl got scolded. Mr.roland asked them to get their ass out of the class and also their bags. This girl answered mr.roland "I saw some of them walked out so I came in,i'm sorry" Mr.Roland replied fiercely" YOU'RE NOT THE IMPORTANT ONE,I'M THE IMPORTANT ONE!" After that the girl replied "okayyyy..." Mr.roland went "don't be rude to say okaayyy"

ME and a few of my friends were still inside because we were err packing our stuffs and joking alil here and there (i know,inappropriate time) and were shocked by the shouting. So yeah,we left asap. Oh well,that's MR.ROLAND! Just have to get use to him..he teaches well though but has rather bad mood swings. So anyway... I was told by sylvia that during maths class ms.tor said my name,not for good stuff! What happened was she saw a sweet wrapper near to the seat that syl is sitting which is also my place la so when ms.tor picked up this wrapper she said "haiya,this must be jess's job! always eat already and never throw properly!" HELLLO...IT'S NOT MEEE!! I REMEMBER CLEARLY THAT I'VE THROWN MINE INTO THE RUBBISH BIN THE OTHER DAY!! Okay,i admit that once i left it in the drawer but it doesn't mean i would repeat it again!! I was expecting to say something to me during my set 3 class but she didn't so I didn't bother saying anything also. Hahahhaa....but anyway...not a big deal.

Did I say I was superb to make it to assembly like 1min before the assembly started? Hahaha..yesss,i'm super! I wasn't late...I was NEARLY/ VERY CLOSE TO BEING LATE! Luckily,I made a fast move,went upstairs and threw the bag and zoom down with kar yee and syl! I don't want to end up in the "LATE COMERS" line..I was in there last week but people like me..I escaped because I don't want to be blacklisted,I don't want anything to destroy my AT THE MOMENT PERFECT conduct..no offenses so far. ;)

so yeah,that's about what happened in sch. Ohh...the other fun part is kar yee and me debating about how to solve a chem question in the prac paper! We drove each other crazy,seriously but was soo much fun:)!

Alright,DQ soon and after that badminton! Weeheee AGAIN!

2008-07-11T20:06:00.002+08:00

I belong to CREAM colour! I received a mail which is soo freaking true. It's about finding your own colour based on your birth dates and mine was CREAM.

This is what it wrote:

Competitive and sportive. Don't liek losing and always cheerful! You're trustworthy and very out going. You choose love carefully,and DON'T FALL IN LOVE EASILY. But once you find the right one you don't let go or a long time.

OMG! How could it be so accurate?! I'm impressed...very impressed indeed! Anyway...

Nothing much today,stayed home do some work and went out for lunch for abit,came back work again and after that had a short nap. Went for badminton today,had quite a good match and it was all FUN! That's about it lahhh...

Again...I'M IMPRESSEDD! I STILL CAN'T BELIVE leii...

2008-07-10T20:15:00.002+08:00

OHHHH YESSSSS....it's THURSDAY! It's superb to think of not having to attend classes tmrw! Phewww...after a long day today,its good to take a break from seeing the teachers:)! Anyway,received a FCKING BAD NEWS IN SCH! Phy test which contributes to QUALIFYING will be either on MONDAY or THURS! Please pray that it's THURS! Monday is way too soon and it's unfair to us because he forgot to inform our set only till this morning whereas apparently he has told the other sets like last week or week before?! WTH?! so it's gonna be PHYSICS WEEKEND!

Alright,I forgot to bring my data booklet to chem class and "FORTUNATELY" carol who sits beside didn't have it with her too and when MR.ROLAND asked us to look at it I was so scared that he's gonna shout right at my face because he reminded that we have to bring it with us everyday,I left it at home coz i used the night before. Every min when he looked at me,I felt super nervous and I was preparing myself to get yelled at but thank god he didn't. Im sure he knew I didn't have it with me despite me pretending as If i did by taking lotsa things out like,having the application book,textbook and some papers messing around to look like YESS,SHE DOES HAVE IT! Hahaha..anyway, as said i think he knew i didn't have it with me because when he said "look at la di da di da" I couldn't look at anything besides starring at him and taking note of what he is saying and each time he looks at me I have this "ohh shit shit,he's gonna yell...shit..god pls nooo plssss" THANK YOU GOD FOR PROTECTING ME! He didn't to my surprise..I kept asking "when is he gonna finish using this data booklet" Phhewww..

So anyway, I messaged ray the first thing in the morning asking him to bring whatever junks he could possibly find at home coz he normally buys stuff like that,since my class ends only at 3pm,I need smth to keep me awake! Expecting him to bring me what I requested,he put me in disappoinment! He said he couldn't find them,don't know where his mom hid them and his mom wasn't at home and before I could say a thing he said "BUT I've asked syl to buy some if she goes out for lunch" Hahaha...but err nothing was bought in the end coz they didn't end up going for lunch so I went down to find miss cheryl lim in her office to get some sweets from her,I took a handful and when I went into class ray asked me what have I got, I said a number of sweets and sooo it all ended up being shared and left one for myself:(! Sobbb...

I FINALLY PLAYED BADMINTON TODAY! It feels FANTASTICCC!!! SWEAT SWEAT SWEATTT!! Just love itt....so refreshing! Wooosshhh... Alright,SUPPOSED to go out for dinner with the gang in kaizhen(sushi) but again I would have to repeat I must have NO LIFE! NOOO LIFE!! Hahaha...no la,but i have some stuffs to do tonight;) and therefore I gtg now....byeeee:D

2008-07-09T20:10:00.003+08:00

CAT FIGHT IS THE LATEST TREND IN SCHOOL! Muahahhaa... I don't know what on earth is wrong but two cat fight cases in school. The thing is, I'm not surprised about the whole fighting process but the people involved in it is the one which surprised the hell out me..I nearly had my eyes popped out when I was told who fought! The case yest was between one of my QUIET and SEEMINGLY TIMID classmate. I stresssssssssss....QUIET AND SEEMINGLY TIMID! It happened outside the chem lab,while I was walking towards the phy lab I saw two girls without tudung and a few girls surrounding there with mr.nyiau who was also on the to have phy lessons. I walked passed,at first I didn;t recognize it was my classmate with her tudung down and spects off,I looked twice and the first thing came to my mind was "WHAT?!!! HER?! Not illusion right?" When I saw her friends surrounding her,I thought OMG,WHAT ON EARTH HAS JUST HAPPENED? Apparently,they slapped each other, I wasn;t aware of it at first though I was somewhere around because they didn't shout so didn't get my attention. Hahaha...sounds bad? A worse case happened today...

The first thing I was told to as a friend approached me was "HEYY,THERE'S ANOTHER FIGHT but it's different people" I was like "huh? where? when? again? why?" I was told that it's between one PRE U 2 and one PRE U1 and PRE U2 WON!! YAY!!! wAY TO GOOOO PRE U2! Okay noo...so anyway yeah..I heard the PREU1's uniform got ripped off from the sleve all the way to the waist and she had to use her tudung to cover up. When I knew who was the PRE U2 student that was involved in this fight again I was given another bigg bigg surprise! It's my ex-classmate in sjs,she's only my schoolmate now..also another TIMID,SMALL LITTLE GIRL! But she won? Soo...don't underestimate them huh...Minna asked the "CHAMP" if she was hurt and she answered "no,she was the one!" Wooo...got style huh? Hahaha...;)! Applause applause....haha!

Alright,so done with the interesting part,school is back to B-O-R-I-N-G again! Hahaha....today isn't so bad since there isn't any homeworks given..YAY!! I slept in the afternoon as usual,no exercise(god damn it,its BAD!). I'm looking forward to the next badm session now...We need to play before tracy goes on vaca for 1WEEK! Oh yeah,on top of that,congrats to her for passing her uni:)! YOU GO GIRLL!

Minna asked me a question today:

Minna: What does it mean when u can't stop looking at someone?
Jess: It means u really like that person and can't stand a min even not looking at him.
Minna: So perhaps the other way, if you stop looking at someone it means u really don't like them?
Jess: That doesn't apply,not looking doesn't necessarily mean you don't think of them. It doesn't go both ways. It's not a REVERSIBLE REACTION! (chem term) Hahaha...

So tonight's plan is chemistry and GP(essay test tmrw,PFFTT!!). Anyway,I guess that's all for now..

2008-07-08T20:08:00.002+08:00

I made a confession this morning in sch to mrs.kamini. Well,we were supposed to hand in one of the assignment she gave us on monday but alot didn't do as well so she pushed it to tues which is today but I still didn't do anything about it,I mean i've never put in effort for GP,i focus a whole lot more on the other three subjects(core subs). Mrs.kamini was complaining about me not spending enough time for her subj too and I'm conscious about her being disappointed but GP does take up quite a lot of time coz its essay and stuff like that so normally I don't bother to practise or do the work that she gives. So anyway, I told her about it this morning,I asked her if she would be alright with me handing it in tmrw. As expected,she asked the one million dollar ques WHY? I told her honestly,I've not done it yet,I'll do it tonight. She said "sighh...okay then,you've got the permission" Phewww...then only I realized quite a number were in the same boat as i'm too. Hahaha...anyway,It's done now and it's ready to be handed in tmrw. Homeworks are sorta done,physics half way thru,continue later,ques are little compared to yest but it's TOUGHER!

I was called for badm just now but I couldn't make it due to the workload I have in hand, I was happy that I wasn't tempted by all the sms-es from anthony,sylvester,keat yaw! I told anthony,we'll play on thurs,fri and sat! He said "NO! UNLESS YOU PLAY TODAY" Hahaha..sorry,but I always stick on to my principle that academic comes before anything else. Alright,talking bout this,I slept in the afternoon but was awaken by a phone call. I didn't answer it though,I took my mobile and saw its from ray,I wanted to ans but phone was on low batt. Hehehe...Anyway,I asked him what's up and he said he wanted to ask me if I would love to join him and zhao ren for tea or something like that,hang out. When i get back to him,they were already done but they're going out tonight as well yam cha but I told ray I won't be joining because I'm having my SWEET TIME(NO LIFE) at home. Ray tempted me by saying "only a while wor and he's going to spore on fri for three weeks already worr" I answered him "zhao ren is important also since he comes back once in a year from UK but my work is just more imp" Heeeee:D

So yeah,I spent the evening doing work and i will do the same thing for tonight(EVERY FREAKING NIGHT) in fact! How sad can life be man? how miserable? It's short and I'm supposed to ENJOY lei...yes?

YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS :):)

Till here then...ciao;)

2008-07-08T01:08:00.001+08:00

I NEED A MASSAGE!!

I'm DEADD!!

Niteee.. Lolsss...

MOTIVATED!

2008-07-07T19:57:00.003+08:00

I'm sorta kinda motivated by mrs.imelda yapp! She gave a really good talk this morning about career and scholarships! Hahaha..she was damn freaking funny but was real lively! Of the entire talk I remember this STUDY AT LEAST 5 HRS A DAY AND HAVE NO LIFE FOR THE NEXT FOUR MONTHS! Have no life means don't go out,don't chit chat,don't do anything else besides studying! Possible?? OF COURSEEE...................NOT! Hahaha....I thought its best if time is managed properly,we don't really have to cut off everything,or we seriously have to? The talk last for 1hr but it seemed like she woke us up from our 1000hrs of dream!

I went for badminton today,just to get back on track and be bit healthier of course,hadn't exercise for one whole full week! Jeesssus! So UNFIT! Well,actually I didn't feel like going today too coz I'm having aunty visit then when I msged sylvester he insisted that I have to go. Then I said "First day lei,like water tap like that" Then he said "hahaha,wear pad lo" Then I said "OF COURSE GOT WEAR LAAA!! I don't care,if overflow(touchwood) u do the cleaning" Soooo....tick tock tick tock..he picked me up at around 4.30pm and when I was walking towards his car,he was smiling SWEETLY there and I said "LAUGH AT ME!" Then he asked me "did u vring extra or not?" I exclaimed "NOOO!!! Don't need" After that,he reversed abit and asked again "really don't need? second chance for u ohh" I exclaimed again "DON'T NEED! IT'S NOT JUST PUTTING ON,HAVE TO WASH OKAYY!!" Sighh...see guysss,they don't understand! Hahaha...While I was there sitting after I finished my game,they asked me play again but I said "sorry,can't....I....errr....have "AUNTY VISIT"! So they insisted gavin to play and he laughed saying "I have "UNCLE VISIT"! Tracy laughed out and asked "what colour is urs?" Gavin answered "hahaha,mine is WHITE!" Hahahaha....damn those ppl! And he even said "uncle visit more painful la,it;s not flowing..it "SHOOTS" out...more pressure!" WTH GAVIN!

Had a couple of fun games but came back early coz I have alot to do! It's time to SUFFER AGAINNN!! :(! Alright alright...till here then:).

Byeeeeeeee

Specially for LIPIN!

2008-07-07T14:11:00.001+08:00

THANK YOU DARLING for helping me out despite having perlims coming up soon! Hahah...sorry bout that but I'm just IT STUPID u see. Whats navigation again? Hahaha...

Alright alright...this is a post for you...SPECIALLY FOR YOU TO THANK YOU FOR THE EFFORT AND TIME! I truly appreciate it. Now my blog looks FANTASTIC! Absolutely Gorgeoussssssssssss baby:)!

THANK YOU DARLINGGGG:D

2008-07-06T23:56:00.000+08:00

hello.
this is a guest post.
an uninvited one. :D

anyway, JeSS! you kid. i randomly just put it as blue first. when you ever find a nice colour, then you can tell me, and i'll make the changes. i cant be bothered to do the matchings now. heee. your darling here has to study for her dearest prelims.

i realised your blog timing's a little screwed up. i'll change it for you, if i can be bothered. hahaha. your blogskin currently looks like mine, just that yours is blue and is pictures of jessica. hahahah. oh wells. GOODNIGHT! :D

the loved one,
LIPIN(:

2008-07-06T19:50:00.000+08:00

ONE WEEK GONE! Down to 4 weeks left! You know its sunday yet you couldn't enjoy it coz u have something important coming up in no time,sad isn't it? Weekend turns nightmare? I spent like almost the whole morning doing all the physics homeworks...like around what? 15 questions? Long questions...and he didn't give us a date when we have to hand it in so I asked elaine and she said don't think we have to hand it in and I went "WHAT?! REPEAT THAT AGAIN!" Hahahaha...its a good thing to get it done..it's revision in a way!

My alarm rang at 7am but I get off bad at 8am! 1hr difference..hahaha! So actually,It's useless to set an early alarm coz I jsut shut it off and continue sleeping:). I always need someone to knock on my door...and there was once my mom came in and said "weeeiii,still don't wanna wake up,u have no classes today meh?" Then I just answered "noooooo......" Then my mom paused for a while and asked "huh? no? why? it's monday wor" Then I jumped out of the bed saying "ohh shit...monday! okay,i'm off to bathroom now" I was in my dreamland but can't remember what I was dreaming of. Sighh..always get disturbed when I start dreaming:(! Whats the point of all this? I don't know..hahaha

Okay,tmrw's class will be till 1.15pm and there will be a career talk by Imelda yapp tmrw morning which I should be attending. GP presentation in the afternoon. And and and...my err back is sorta aching or its feeling kinda sore because I'mmm currently.....................AHEM AHEM:D! See,I need to rest okayyy.....sobbbb:(

Okay till here then...byeeeee

2008-07-05T18:54:00.000+08:00

WOOHOO!! I'm super hyper today...whyy? COZ I WILL GET DQ LATERR!!! DQ'S GREEN TEA ICE CREAM IS MY LOVEEE!!! Sherline is coming down to kaybe later for some party and I asked her to buy it for meee!! Weeee....heheeeee!!! Thank you babyyyy...Okay,tonight is rach's party but I won't be there. WHY?

Not quite in the mood for parties,I'm super worried bout my qualifying which is soon so decided to refrain myself from whatever fun possible. Thennn....around 5ish,I was told family dinner tonight! Lolsss...anyway,HAPPY BIRTHDAY RACH:)! Maybe we shall party again next time but for now I really can't make it. I prefer not to la,just to be honest here though I might not be doing much tonight since its been a long day today.

There's a whole lot of physics homework assigned...sure to spend hours doing it and I don't know when to hand in coz he didn't give us the exact date. Alright,today's phy class wasn't that bad,we discussed about our design questions and whoever wish to volunteer would have to go out and draw their diagrams and explain. I didn't volunteer just now,perhaps next week!

Ohh yeah...my darling lou lou is SICKK!! :(! Poor baby...rest well laaa and I hope to see u in sch on monday:)

Okay..gtg now get ready for dinner. Ciaooo

2008-07-04T19:07:00.000+08:00

In a world of lies,you're the truth
You walked into my life to stop my tears
I know what is beautiful by looking at you
I wanna change the world just for you
All the impossible I wanna do for you!

Muahahhahaa....I love those wordsss...one more line- LOVE DEEPLY AND PASSIONATELY,YOU MIGHT GET HURT BUT IT'S THE ONLY WAY TO LIVE LIFE COMPLETELY! Yeahh...sounds very correct,doesn't it? One could only give as much as they possibly could and they're certainly unable to be in control of the whole situation so if you think you've given your BEST then live with NO REGRETS because that's the capability you're given from god,what more can you do and what more do u wish to ask for? Life is ALWAYS/AT ALL TIMES about taking risk and having the courage within to face whatever that is in the way. We make it a learning process as we go along and stay as positive as we possibly can each time. The magic of a possible mind might just throw u a big surprise. What is most important above all is to love people around you and not take them for granted. I encounter this issue which bothers me alot. There's this family which consists of a 5yrs old girl who's parents are currently filling for divorce or are already seperated(shortgun marriage). This 5 year old and her mom lives with her own mom and dad in a rather small house. The issue here is the behaviour of this 5yr old girl which is so DISRESPECTFUL but I can tell you I WOULDN'T BLAME THIS LIL GIRL AT ALL! It's how she's brought up,she's lack of love obviously because her mom doesn't care about her and she's always or most of the time with her grandmother who is not in a very good condition yet trying hard to be patient with her at all times. I do not expect her to APPRECIATE at this stage but it just pissed me off to see how this lil girl could be so rebellious most of the times and talk in such a RUDE RUDE RUDE way to the elderly. Whenever I see this happen,I'd feel like smacking the lil girl's mouth and to tell her how WRONG she is but I couldn't because first she isn't my SISTER OR COUSIN OR ANYTHING OF THAT SORT and secondly I CAN'T BLAME HER! It's how she's being influenced,the way she talks is exactly how her mom talks. Unless her mom does something to change her own daughter and take some responsibilities,I see this lil girl going NO WHERE good. It's a waste i must say,she's smart,she can study well but she needs some basic education and at least a more stable family to help her change into a lil girl who would be loved by others. I pity her partly and hope she would really change as time goes by.

Back on my part....I FINALLY HAD DQ TODAYY!! wooohooo...been craving it...GREEN TEA ICE CREAM! Went with tracy....hehehehe:). SLURP SLURP..I wanted to buy some home but it melts really fast sooo....NOOOOOO:(! My whole family except me are going out for a dinner in an aunty's place...I can't since i have WORKKK to do..as always. I'm not keen to go anyway,feeling sleepy so I just wanna get things done and go to bed:)