Friday, August 15, 2008 8:10 PM
I've DECIDED that things cannot be changed whether u like it or not,whether or not you're STRESS bout it because whatever is done cannot be undone so I've DECIDED to wait and face it with all the courage and not be afraid of it because I HAVE TO CONTROL it and NOT BE CONTROLLED BY IT! Yesss...I'VE DECIDED! Whether I like it or not,I'd have to deal with it because at this point in time I cannot change the cards I'm dealt just the way we play the hand so I'm trying to ask myself to go towards it and not to move backwards. Life shouldn't be lived with full of fear,it should be a happy one so next time these stories and memories can be passed on to the next generation and the next next and next next next so it becomes something to be cherished and meaningful. It then becomes a beautiful picture that stays in everybody's heart without the need to paint. Well,I'm being emotional I know but YUPPP,I SHALL JUST FACE IT WITH NO FEAR! If it didn't turn out to be great,I would hope it wouldn't turn out bad although I of course wish it's gonna be great so I need not resit again but sometimes things just doesn't turn out the way u want or expect them to be but we can still always hope. There's a saying which I've always loved is that "Hope is the only gift we can give ourselves and it's the only thing that remains when all else are gone" Lose whatever,don't lose hope otherwise there will seem to be NO REASON at all as to why you SHOULD stand up on both feet again to work for it. OKAYYY??? I'm trying to convince myself okayyy....I've shared this with my family too and they've been trying hard to calm me down everytime,my mom said "why worry? cambridge examiners won't see this and so your grades or marks won't change,you're jsut torturing urself,what for? POINTLESS isn't it? You'll just end up in depression and by that time it's YOU WHO NEEDS A PSYCHOLOGIST"
The last line I told myself was "Have faith,trust and confidence,you'll be fine. Don't worry okay..you will be alright."
Okayyy....let's do a quick review...so far the exams had quite been alright i would say...some went great laa...overall so so lor. I'm also hoping that this time the qualifying is gonna turn out good too because grades will be forwarded to shell for scholarship. So yuupp..got to do well so I shall FOCUS!
Okay okay???? Yessss OKAYYYY!!
IT WILL BE FINEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!
JeSS loves you!
