Tuesday, September 09, 2008 5:35 PM
I guess that's it,this feeling sorts of tell her it's pretty much done. Perhaps it had been long ago,just that she never realized and has been in denials all these while because she always sees a ray of hope but I guess at this point,she just had enough and came to realize that it was just an option in her life,she shouldn't have placed it as the priority. It was initially but things changed and IT'S FOR THE BETTER!
Everything happens for a reason,If you miss it this time it doesn't mean you've lost out. It simply means that God thinks it's not your turn yet.
Right then...what's next? Italian food for lunch today! Went to FRATS with the other halves but I didn't eat alot. I seriously think something is wrong! I didn't eat anything in the morning up to 11.35,I was really hungry and was having gastric during GP class which was the last lesson of the day and during maths class I was thinking of MAGGIE MEE+EGG+HAM in jee juan! but we've decided on FRATS earlier on,I was indeed excited about going to lunch and thought I would gobble down food wrong. I think I was TOO HUNGRY till I'M FULL! Make sense out of that if u can..hahahha!! I knew I wasn't too full or I wasn't even full yet,I shouldn't be coz I didn't have a single thing down my stomach for the whole morning and based on the amount I ate,I normally wouldn't feel full..could barely feel it even during normal circumstances but it's different today and has been lately.
I had a pretty long talk with daddy yest night over dinner. About academics of course..I told him about me feeling insecure because I'm not feeling the stress. He told me to take things step by step and maybe it's because whatever I'm learning now,I've learnt it before thus it became sort of like overwhelmed and I know what to expect as I turn the pages. He said it's alright,so long you do ur best,there's nothing you should be afraid of or should u even question yourself about regretting. After that we proceeded to the FUTURE which isn't far away,it's just TWO steps away I would say. He told me what's on demand now and what jobs would most likely be interesting,at least it's on a move. He suggested umm
Actuarial science? I personally plan to do BIOTECH/BIOCHEM! Biotech is indeed the new frontier but then to work in Brunei,opportunity definitely is as slim as it possibly could be unless I work in countries like spore who spend BUCKKKSSS into doing research! That's not what I'm really concern or looking into now,I'm just all into my A levels.
Miss tor : Your exams has yet to end...IT IS JUST ABOUT TO BEGIN! I can so feel the force when she said those words. It is indeed just about to begin,,the million dollar question is HOW MUCH HAVE U PREPARED? We're fighting against the 100yrs old CAMBRIDGE as mr.nyiau had always said. He would then take the OLYMPIANS as an example..
One of his recent ones would the gymnast who spent YEARS of their life just to perform on certain apparatus that only takes them LESS THAN 1MIN and what's more to that is spending so much time in preparing doesn't necessarily gurantee them a medal. So keep on working,move ahead,move towards where we're supposed to be heading.
However,there are always achievements. MICHEAL PHELPS for example,set his goals in grabbing 8 gold medals. He surely did it..it might not be easy but he reached that point. So,whatever the mind conceive we can achieve.
Don't ask "WHY ME" instead say "TRY ME!"
Xin said she needed motivation. Hahha..and ohh talking about this girl. I saw her listening DISNEY songs thru MSN! Hahaha...so cute also uuu darling. Ji funny yi xia..but I do like certain songs from DISNEY:D! I like their cute cute characters:D
MICKEYYY;)
JeSS loves you!
